Five Little Chairs

Lyrics

Verse 1
I used to call my brothers first
Now the phone stays still
Same hands that held me up
Left me with a harder will
When the day gets heavy
I hear that old pulse back
And I know the dark can talk
When I’m walking off track

Five little voices at the door
Pull me back in place
And my wife with that tired smile
Still brings me to grace
I been lost in my own head
Trying to outrun the pain
But the ones who count on me
Make me want to change

Pre-Chorus
I don’t want to break again
I don’t want to lie
I got little eyes on me
I can’t let them see me die
So I breathe it through
Let the shame fall down
I’m still here
I’m still around

Chorus
For you, I stay
For you, I stay
My home, my name
My reason to change
For you, I stay
For you, I stay
Five little hearts
Keep me safe from the grave (safe from the grave)

Verse 2
I’ve seen the bottle win
I’ve seen the pills take days
Seen a bad thought land
And change the shape of my face
I don’t glamorize that hell
I know exactly what it cost
Missed birthdays, empty chairs
Time I cannot get back, lost
But my daughter’s laugh
And my son’s wild race
Pull me out that deep black fog
Back into my place

My wife holds the line
When my mind turns cold
She don’t save me from myself
She helps me face the road
And the house stays loud
With the life we built
So I’m learning how to carry love
Instead of carrying guilt

Bridge
If I fall, I rise slow
If I shake, I pray
I can’t give them a half-man
I need better days
I was built from scars
But I’m more than pain
I’m a father, I’m a husband
I can learn my name

Chorus
For you, I stay
For you, I stay
My home, my name
My reason to change
For you, I stay
For you, I stay
Five little hearts
Keep me safe from the grave (safe from the grave)

Outro
I’m not done yet
I’m still in the fight
One more sober morning
One more honest night
For the woman I love
For the kids I raise
I’m becoming someone new
One hard step away