The Moon Still Knows My Name

Lyrics

The lyrics
[Intro — Fingerpicked acoustic guitar, faint room noise, one distant cello note]
Verse 1
There's a crack across the ceiling
I've been watching it for weeks
Like the shape of something broken
That looks a little like me
There's a war beneath my rib cage
There's a voice that never sleeps
And it knows just where to find me
When the house goes quiet and deep
I've grown tired of saying I'm alright
Just to make the questions stop
Some nights I feel a thousand miles
From the man I used to love
And I leave the curtains open
Though there's nothing much to see
Just a little patch of heaven
That might send some light to me
Pre-Chorus — Almost whispered
I don't ask the dark for mercy
I don't ask to be set free
I just wonder if the moon tonight
Will find its way to me
[Chorus — A low, aching melody; restrained harmonies]
So I wait for the moon
When the night gets inside me
When my own mind becomes
Somewhere I cannot hide
And I stare at the sky
Through the glass and the blue
Like a man who has forgotten
What the light used to do
Oh, I wait for the moon
When I don't know what else to do
Verse 2 — Guitar and cello, no drums
There's a coffee going colder
There's a phone I never call
There are people who would hold me
If I knew how to tell them all
That I'm not afraid of dying
I'm just tired of this ache
Of waking up inside a life
That feels like my mistake
And the worst part is the waiting
For a feeling I can't name
For the day my head grows quiet
For a night that feels the same
I have learned to hide the wreckage
I have learned to wear the smile
But the man who stands before them
Has been missing for a while
Pre-Chorus — A faint harmony enters
If there's nothing left to answer
If there's nothing left to prove
Let the sky turn silver slowly
Let me have one thing to look to
[Chorus — Slightly fuller, distant backing vocals]
So I wait for the moon
When the night gets inside me
When my own mind becomes
Somewhere I cannot hide
And I stare at the sky
Through the glass and the blue
Like a man who has forgotten
What the light used to do
Oh, I wait for the moon
When I don't know what else to do
[Bridge — Everything falls away except one guitar]
Maybe the moon is only moonlight
On a world that doesn't care
Maybe there's no hand above me
Maybe no one's waiting there
But I've seen it leave the heavens
I've seen whole nights turn to gray
And I've watched it find me afterward
Though I never asked it to stay
So if I can't believe in healing
If forever feels too far
I'll believe in something simple
Like the light that finds the dark
And if I can't love this life tonight
If that's more than I can do
I'll leave the curtains open
Let the moon come shining through
[Final Chorus — Emotion breaks through; cello swells, drums barely enter]
I'll wait for the moon
When the night gets inside me
When the voice in my head
Says there's nowhere left to hide
I'll be here by the window
With these hands I barely know
Let the sky turn silver slowly
Let the quiet find me whole
I don't need the world to promise
That the pain will disappear
I just need to know there's morning
Even when it isn't here
So I'll wait for the moon
I'll wait out the blue
If I can't see a way forward
I'll let the light find me where I am
Oh, I'll wait for the moon
And tonight, that'll do
[Outro — Barely audible, guitar slowing naturally]
The crack is on the ceiling.
The coffee's turning cold.
The night is still the night I knew
A thousand nights ago.
But there's silver on the window
And the room is changing blue.
I thought I'd lost the whole world.
The moon came back.
(One final guitar harmonic. Long silence. No dramatic ending.)