numb

Lyrics

NUMB SEASON
Prod. by — | BPM: 63 | Key: A Minor
Intro — Sung low
Mmm… yeah
This that numb season…
Verse 1
I don't feel much anymore, I think I built a wall
Every time I let somebody in I watch it fall
Used to be the type to cry, now the tears don't come
Traded all my feelings in for bein' numb
Pour another drink just to feel the room spin
Can't decide if healing's starting or if I'm givin' in
Lost a couple people that I thought was mine for real
Now I keep my circle small so I control what I feel
Chorus
Numb season, numb season — I ain't cryin' no more
Build my castle up alone so I can guard the door
Numb season, numb season — had to cut the ties
Wouldn't be this cold if I ain't seen through all the lies
Numb season — I know it ain't healthy
But feeling everything at once left me empty
Numb season — yeah this where I'm at
Working through the dark 'til the light comes back
Verse 2
Instagram is everybody's highlight reel
Nobody post the 3AM when shit ain't real
I been in them trenches, quiet, figuring me out
Deleted all the people who was bringing me doubt
Therapy helped a little, journaling the rest
Realized half my sadness was me ignoring stress
I was pouring into vessels that were cracked at the seam
Now I pour into myself, steady building a dream
Pre-Chorus
I know the numb don't last forever
Seasons change and I'll be better
Right now I just need the quiet
Find my peace before I try it
Chorus
Numb season, numb season — I ain't cryin' no more
Build my castle up alone so I can guard the door
Numb season — I know it ain't healthy
But feeling everything at once left me empty
Outro — Spoken
Some seasons you gotta go through numb…
just to remember what it feels like to feel
I'm workin' on itBAD FOR ME
Prod. by — | BPM: 66 | Key: D Minor
Intro — Whispered
I know you're bad for me… I just don't care tonight
Verse 1
You pull up at midnight with that look in your eyes
Know you came to start shit but I let you inside
Every time I say I'm done you show up and I fold
You a habit I can't quit, you're bad for my soul
Smell like trouble but you taste like everything I want
Say you're changing but your actions are a different front
Told my boys I cut you off, they believed it this time
Then you called and all that strength just left my mind
Pre-Chorus
I know you're wrong for me, I know
I know I'll regret this in the morning when I go
But your hands on my skin got me stuck in this thing
And I hate how good bad can feel
Chorus
You're bad for me — I know, I know
But I keep on comin' back through your door
You're bad for me — and still I stay
'Cause the good times hit different than the pain
You're bad for me — and I'm bad too
'Cause I keep entertainin' something I can't pursue
You're bad for me — but tonight I don't care
Burn it down together since we're already there
Verse 2
You don't want a relationship, just want what I give
I don't want the heartbreak but it's the life that I live
Read the situation wrong and I paid for it twice
Now I'm back at square one, same vice
You got somebody else but you still in my space
Got the nerve to show up with that look on your face
And I know I should dead it, know I should let go
But you turn on that energy and I lose all control
Bridge
This ain't love, it's a cycle we can't break
Every time we fall in we got more at stake
I should want better but I want you instead
And that shit right there is what's fuckin' with my head
Chorus — Out
You're bad for me — I know, I know
But I keep on comin' back…
You're bad for me — and still I stay
And the good times hit different than the pain…ON SIGHT
Prod. by — | BPM: 140 | Key: G Minor
Intro
Aye — they see me different now, on sight
Verse 1
On sight, soon as I pull up they recognize
Came from the bottom, couldn't see it with civilian eyes
Every lick was a lesson, every block was a trial
Made it out with my soul and I'm here for a while
Never had nobody hand me shit on a plate
Ate off pride and ambition while they told me to wait
Now it's designer on my chest, foreign whip on the lane
Money changed the atmosphere but I stayed the same
Chorus
On sight, on sight — they see me comin'
Went from nothin' to somethin' while you all was frontin'
On sight, on sight — no love for the fake
I kept it solid while y'all fumbled the faith
On sight, on sight — I move with intention
Every step I took, they tried to pull me out my position
On sight, on sight — still I rose
Fucc the politics, I let the money talk and the results show
Verse 2
Used to move in silence, now the silence is loud
Room full of strangers used to be a crowd
Cut the dead weight off, lost a few that I love
But loyalty ain't somethin' that you fake just 'cause
Ten missed calls from niggas that was missin' in action
Now I'm at the table and they wanna be captains
Nah, I remember who was there in the drought
Keep that small circle tight and I keep the leeches out
Bridge
Tried to dim my light, it only made it brighter
Every one who doubted just made me a fighter
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