I'll never have it again

Lyrics

[Verse 1 - sparse acoustic guitar strums, gravelly male vocals with self-hating sneer, distant harmonica wail]

Wasted days in the rearview, choking on smoke from bridges I burned
Screamin' at ghosts in the mirror, yeah, I'm the fool who never learned
Pissed off at the kid I was, chasin' highs that crashed like thunder
Now I'm starin' at nothin', wonderin' why I even bother

[Pre-Chorus - building distortion on electric guitar, rising snare tension, venomous spoken-word edge]

All those moments, slipped through my fists like cheap whiskey rain
Can't get 'em back, and fuck me, I deserve the pain

[Chorus - heavy blues riff explosion, overdriven slide guitar, howling angry vocals with echoey self-loathing screams]

Gone forever, those old times I'll never taste again!
Rage in my veins, hatin' the wreck of a man I've been!
Livin' without 'em? Yeah, I'll crawl through this hell alone
Screamin' my failures into the void, carved into my bones!

[Verse 2 - muddy baritone guitar chugs, trap-blues 808 pulse creeping in, bitter snarling delivery with ad-lib curses]

Nights we laughed till the dawn broke, now just echoes mockin' my shame
I torched it all with my poison tongue, playin' the villain in my own damn game
Self-made prisoner, keys in the trash, drownin' in what I threw away
Angry at the mirror's truth, punchin' shadows till they fade

[Bridge - stripped to raw piano and feedback hum, vulnerable whisper turning to guttural roars, building chaotic noise wall]

Why'd I ruin it? Goddamn idiot, king of my own collapse
Livin' hollow now, no light left, just the weight of what I lack
Fuck the past, fuck the future, fuck this breathin' corpse I am...

[Final Chorus/Outro - full band fury with distorted organ swells, thunderous kick drums, fading into reverb-drenched howls and feedback decay]

Gone forever, those old times I'll never taste again!
Rage eternal, loathin' the scum that I am within!
Livin' without... yeah, I'll rot in this dark alone...
(Ad-libs: Fuck me... fuck it all... echo into silence)