Why is this happening?

Lyrics

[Verse - ghostly future bass intro, airy pads, distant vocal chops, lonely male lead]
Why is this happening to me?
You came back like a dream through the static and the dark,
Best thing that ever found my heart.
I never thought I’d see you again,
But I never really let you go,
You were the first kiss I still feel in my bones,
The first time love made my whole world glow.
Pre-Chorus
And every time you looked at me
It felt like lightning under skin,
I knew you felt it too,
I saw the way you’d fall back in.
You were sweet, you loved me right,
Made my broken days feel warm and bright,
Now I’m standing in the wreckage
Of the future we were building all night.
Chorus - huge future bass drop
We were supposed to be happy together now,
Nothing left to stop us anymore somehow,
I’m sorry for the pain, I’m sorry for the blame,
It wasn’t all on me, it wasn’t all the same.
You were the girl of my dreams,
Perfect in my eyes, in every little thing,
I loved your smile, I loved your light,
Now you won’t even say my name tonight.
Verse
I don’t know how you could say those cruel things,
How you could turn my sunrise into winter rain,
Why do you hate me when I gave you everything?
Why would you do this to your soulmate in pain?
What happened to the plans we made?
The late-night talks, the better days,
We were supposed to heal each other,
Not vanish like smoke and fade away.
Bridge
I never got one night with you,
Never got to taste your cooking,
Never got to live the life
That I kept on hoping, hoping.
It shouldn’t have to end like this,
This is not how love is meant to be,
No matter what you are my first,
My last, my only memory.
Chorus
We were supposed to be happy together now,
Nothing left to stop us anymore somehow,
I’m sorry for the pain, I’m sorry for the blame,
But losing you has torn me open in my name.
You were the girl of my dreams,
Perfect in my eyes, in every little thing,
You loved me and I felt alive,
Now I’m drowning in the sound of goodbye.
No matter what, you’re my first and last love,
And I don’t know how to live when you’re not enough,
I’ll never love again, that’s what my heart believes,
I’m just a ghost of who I was when you were here with me.
Change up
Why is this happening?
Verse
When you came back into my life, it felt like heaven in disguise
Best thing that ever happened to me, I swear it lit up all my skies
I never thought I'd see you again, I never let your memory die
I never forgot about you, no, I kept you buried in my mind
You were my first kiss, and I still feel it like a spark in my skin
Never felt that kind of magic with anyone else, not once, not since
Until you and I, we found it again, every time you’d pull me near
And I know you felt it too, I know it, I could feel it clear
Pre-Chorus
You loved me, you were so sweet
Made my broken world feel complete
I was happy, I was finally free
Now I’m choking on the memory
Chorus
Why are we falling apart when we were meant to be
We should be so happy together right now, you and me
There’s nothing stopping us anymore, so why can’t you see
I’m sorry for everything, but it wasn’t all on me
You’re the girl of my dreams, I wouldn’t change a thing
Your smile was the only light my dark heart ever needed
Why do you hate me, why’d you leave me here to bleed
You were my soulmate, and now I’m just a ghost in the deep
Verse
I don’t know how you could say those mean things and walk away
You won’t even talk to me, like I was nothing yesterday
What happened to the plans we made? We were supposed to grow
Getting better together, side by side, not losing hope
I never got to taste your cooking, never got one night with you
Never held you when the world went cold, never got the chance to
It doesn’t have to be like this, this is not how love should end
We were meant to be in each other’s lives until the very end
Bridge
No matter what happens, you’re my first and last love
I keep reaching for your shadow in the static up above
I’m so tired, I’m so broken, I don’t know who I am
If this is all that’s left of us, I don’t understand
Final Chorus
Why are we falling apart when we were meant to be
We should be so happy together right now, you and me
There’s nothing stopping us anymore, so why can’t you see
I’m sorry for everything, but it wasn’t all on me
You’re the girl of my dreams, I wouldn’t change a thing
Your smile was the only light my dark heart ever needed
Why do you hate me, why’d you leave me here to bleed
You were my soulmate, and now I’m just a ghost in the deep
Outro
I will never love again
Nobody will ever love me
I’ll die so sad and alone with this broken heart....
Without you.