Torn

Lyrics

[Intro - sparse piano chords, echoing distant screams building tension, raw whispered vocals]

You think a sorry fixes the knife in my chest?
Carved it deep, knew my scars, but you pressed...

[Verse 1 - driving distorted guitars, aggressive mid-tempo drums, half-rapped half-screamed vocals with emo rasp]

I'm not sure if you know just how much you broke me
Glad you're gettin' help, but bitch, what about me?
When does my healing start? After all the hell we been through
One word "sorry" like that's glue for the wounds that cut straight through
Do you even know what you're sorry for?
Realize how fucked up you were, leavin' me broken on the floor?
Knew my past, knew my pain, still you swung like a blade with no shame
your Emotional punching bag, saw me as disposable, tossed in the shade like you don't need me no more

[Pre-Chorus - rising synth swells, layered harsh harmonies, pounding kick drum buildup]

You cut me off from the world, isolated my soul
Couldn't talk to you, God forbid you take the fall
Saw my flaws before I could breathe, tore into me without wait
Left me bleedin' all alone, drownin' in the hate you throw

[Chorus - explosive full band drop, massive screamed vocals with gang shouts, heavy distortion and crashing cymbals, anthemic emo rap flow]

What the fuck do you expect from me now?!
Stay and fight? Forgive? Or just bail out?
You used me up, felt like the big shot king
While I sank lower, day by day, feelin' everything
A hole in my chest, carved by your insecurities
One sorry won't heal this, you fuckin' debris!
I'm done bein' your vent, your disposable trash
Time to heal me, leave your wreckage in the past!

[Verse 2 - glitchy guitar riffs, trap hi-hats over 808 bass, aggressive emo rap delivery with screamed ad-libs]

Worst of all, I dealt with it solo, no crew, no light
You sliced every tie, left me lost in the night
Wouldn't atone, just blamed me for breathin' wrong
Preemptive strikes, makin' me feel like the con
Your pain poured out, made me the villain in your play
Big shot you, small me, wastin' away
Now I'm starin' at the mirror, what do I even see?
Fight for us? Or run to someone who gives a fuck for me?

[Bridge - stripped-back acoustic strums turning to feedback chaos, vulnerable clean vocals building to guttural screams, piano swells]

Do I stay... and bleed? Or finally breathe?
Your "sorry" echoes hollow, can't you see?
(What about me? What about me?!)
[Screamed breakdown: FUCK YOUR SORRY! HEAL MY CHEST!]

[Final Chorus / Outro - massive sidechained bass drop, dual screamed/rap vocals with crowd chant ad-libs, fading reverb screams over decaying distortion]

What the fuck do you expect from me now?! (From me now!)
Stay and fight? Forgive? Or just bail out? (Bail out!)
You used me up, felt like the big shot king! (Big shot!)
I'm done, I'm gone, let my healing begin!
[Fading screams: What about me? ...What about me?...]