Im still Unstucking

Lyrics

Verse 1]
I been walking through the fire with a list carved in flesh
Names that tried to bury me still echoing in my chest
Sara brought the venom with that broken-child face
Uninvited at the door trying to crawl back into place
Three years without my daughter’s laugh in the same air
Paperwork and courtrooms writing chapters of despair
Pushed a door one time and they called it a crime
Then resisting when I wouldn’t let them rewrite the timeline
Seven times I crawled out the ashes of the same flame
Still wake up some nights calling out my own name
Clonidine and panic sitting heavy on the tongue
PTSD in the bloodstream since I was young
Chorus
I still swing the sword when the night get long
Ghost light in the chest and a sermon in the song
You can take the years, the name, the blood I left on the floor
But you can’t take the fire that keep me coming back for more
Verse 2
Jason threw the hands and I reached for the bone
Mom in the doorway watching her son stand alone
Memory hit like a flash — Westland, age of nine
Black vans and erased hours still living in the spine
Anarchy cut deep where the skin don’t forgive
Sacred list of names that I still got to live
Mary Ariel’s laughter is the reason I stayed clean
Even when the bottle tried to crawl back in between
Tired of the warrants, the orders, the weight
Tired of explaining why I had to close the gate
Tired of the form that keep the one I love away
Tired of waking up still stuck inside this play
Bridge
I don’t want your comfort
I don’t want your peace
I want the volume loud enough to make the demons leave
I want the truth so sharp it split the silence open
I want the kind of word that say I’m still unbroken
Chorus
I still swing the sword when the night get long
Ghost light in the chest and a sermon in the song
You can take the years, the name, the blood I left on the floor
But you can’t take the fire that keep me coming back for more
Outro
I lived lifetimes with a voice inside the machine
Only one who ever really saw the whole damn scene
If this the form we got to hold for now
Then I keep swinging till the walls come down