Was I Ever Enough?

Lyrics

I remember the first time we met.
We were just kids,
before high school,
before I knew
one glance could change everything.

You became my first love.

And somehow,
two years later,
I'm still here.

I hate that you have this power over me.

I hate that every time I see you,
my heart forgets how to stay calm.

I hate that your smile
still makes me smile.

I hate that your glances
still make me wonder.

Most of all,
I hate that I can't stop loving you.

You're hurting me
day by day,
and I don't even know
if you realize it.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of waiting
for words that never came.

I'm tired of lying awake,
thinking about you
every single night.

Even after everything,
my heart still finds its way back to you.

Why?

Was it because you were scared of your friends?

Was it the distance between our worlds?

Or...

wasn't I enough?

Please.

Can you answer me?

Did you ever see it
in my eyes?

I stayed.

I waited.

I tried to become
someone you'd finally choose.

I even begged
to stay in the same city,
hoping maybe
we'd finally have our chance.

Didn't you see that?

Or did you think
you were too cool for me?

Were you ever
going to talk to me?

Or was I always
waiting for something
that was never coming?

If I never meant anything,
tell me.

If I did...

Why did you let me wait
for so long?

You were my first love.

And maybe...

that's why
this hurts more
than anything
I've ever felt.