Why Am I. ( Sampson)

Lyrics

Intro

Yeah… (yeah)
Why love always gotta leave scars? (why?)
I was just tryna hold somebody down… (for real)

Chorus

Why am I always hurt when I’m just tryna love? (why me?)
Gave my whole heart, still it never feel enough (never enough)
I stay through the storms while they run from the rain (run away)
Now I’m sittin’ here drownin’ in the weight of the pain (too deep)
Every time I trust, I end up bleedin’ alone (alone)
Tryna build a home but they just turn it to smoke (to smoke)
Tell me why the ones I love always let go? (why?)
When all I ever did was love ‘em with my soul (my soul)

Verse 1

I stayed up nights tryna fix what was broken (all night)
Held in my tears while my chest stayed open (wide open)
Took every blame even when I ain’t deserve it (nah)
Loved too hard, now my heart need surgery (cut deep)
I was ten toes when they needed somebody (stood tall)
But when I needed love, ain’t nobody beside me (nobody)
Guess my loyalty became my curse somehow (damn)
‘Cause I keep givin’ chances they don’t value now (facts)
Every “forever” turned temporary quick (so quick)
Every “I got you” disappeared when it hit (when it hit)
Now I’m lookin’ in the mirror askin’ what’s wrong with me (what’s wrong?)
Why the purest love always end in misery? (pain)

Chorus

Why am I always hurt when I’m just tryna love? (tryna love)
Carry everybody else while I’m givin’ up (givin’ up)
I stay through the storms while they run from the rain (they run)
Now my soul so tired from replayin’ the pain (too much)
Every time I care, I get left in the dark (dark nights)
Like they take my whole heart then tear it apart (rip me up)
Tell me why the ones I love always let go? (why?)
When all I ever did was love ‘em with my soul (my soul)

Verse 2

Maybe I feel too much, maybe that’s my flaw (maybe)
I see the good in people even after they cross (crossed me)
Still answer calls when they breakin’ apart (I do)
Even with stitches still holdin’ my heart (barely)
I done carried trauma that was never mine (too heavy)
Smiled through depression just to say I’m fine (I’m fine)
And every goodbye still echo in my brain (echoes)
Like love and loss always ridin’ the same train (same ride)
I gave ‘em real love, not that halfway affection (real love)
Now I got trust issues and abandonment questions (why?)
But somehow I still wanna love through the hurt (still do)
Even when it feel like love only make it worse (damn)

Bridge

I don’t want perfection… (nah)
Just somebody who gon’ stay when I’m imperfect (stay)
Somebody who fight for me the way I fight for them (for real)
Is that too much to ask? (tell me)

Verse 3

I been carryin’ wounds nobody can see (hidden scars)
Still showin’ love even when it’s killin’ me (killin’ me)
Every broken promise left a crack in my trust (crackin’)
Still I gave my all ‘cause I thought it was us (thought it was real)
Now I flinch when somebody say they care (too fast)
‘Cause I done heard that line disappear in thin air (gone)
Late nights, memories floodin’ my head (all night)
Thinkin’ maybe love safer left unsaid (maybe)
But deep down I still want somebody true (true love)
Someone who see my scars and still come through (still here)
‘Cause I’m tired of lovin’ people who just take (take from me)
While my own heart slowly startin’ to break (breakin’)

[Final Chorus – Outro)

Why am I always hurt when I’m just tryna love? (why me?)
Why the kindest hearts always get cut up? (cut deep)
I gave my all, never switched up once (never did)
Still got abandoned when the road got rough (so rough)
Maybe one day somebody gon’ love me right (one day)
Stay through the darkness, hold me through the night (hold me close)
Till then I’ll carry these scars above (above)
Wonderin’ why I’m always hurt…
When I’m just tryna love… (just tryna love)