HOW I WANT TO

Lyrics

In my 42 years here I have seen us go from helping our neighbors to becoming complete strangers.
so many put the blame on our society's vote but never do they go take a long look at their own reflection, I bet ya..
and yet judge those by
who they are or are not,
who does what, to what it is
that they have or ain't got,
shame on us for what we have become
that we can't take the blame for what it is of our own...
though I bite my tougne just to keep the peace. Cause somethings are just better left unsaid. Cause gossip is one of the seven deadliest sins...
and I've always been one, good at leaving the past to rest and to ignore the ones who judged me without their own sights to see but either way they don't matter to me, and I sure hope they do find what it is they seek and in all hopes they practice what it is they preach.

I can't say it was how I was raised
it is my choice to be this way
and I wont give my time to any of those
that have mis judged me, asked for my forgiveness but yet held the same opinions ...oh no....

....so Im gonna do, what it is I want to, when I want and live my life how I want to.

fair or unfair I've come to the conclusion to just be me
and carry on what it is that I am doing and pay no attention to those...
who have brown on their nose.
cause... I've seen pure evil take away innocense and I have lived thru what most couldn't believe that I did.
a drug thug life, guns put to my head, strip to make it by, attempt of murder on my life, that Ive had to..agree to disagree that they just were misunderstandings if I wanted to see the sun rise, an till this day I can't tell you why but I sure wish I could just forget but instead I just let be...and walk away from what doesn't serve me...

yes, I talk to God
and yes I do repent
but I wont dwell in the lords house
to bring myself
around a bunch of hippocrits
that only go to serve themselves

oh...no...

cause I can't say
it was how I was raised
it is my choice to be this way
and I wont give my time to any of those
that have mis judged me, an asked for my forgiveness but yet hold the same opinions...oh no....
so... I'm just gonna do, what I want to, when I want, and live my life how I want to

I may have had to start below the bottom to get to where it was I was going but
never did I step on anyone to get to my destination and thanks to my past no one could get me to fall into a trap of some type of manipulation or trip me up in the cracks of deception of some fixed fake shit, cause I know how to sniff out a lie from truth cause it is that in which I see straight through....
......bull shit.

ohhhh....oh yeah...

cause ...I can't say
it was how I was raised
it is my choice to be this way
and I wont give my time to any of those
that have mis judged me, asked for my forgiveness but yet held the same opinions...oh no....
so... I'm just gonna do, what I want to, when I want, and live my life how I want to