Trying To Be Him , For Me ( Gritty)

Lyrics

(Intro)

Yeah...
Ayy...
Still fightin’ demons... (demons)
Closer now... (closer)
Gritty vibz........

(Verse 1)

Late nights in my head, drownin’ in guilt (guilt)
Tryna patch broken parts streets built (yeah)
Used think bein’ cold was survive (survive)
Now I want your love, keep us alive (alive)
Seen too much pain, too many funerals (damn)
Too many fake smiles, beautifuls (facts)
You the only one stayed when dark (dark)
Holdin’ my hand while fell apart (fell apart)
Every scar on my chest got story tell (tell)
Livin’ in anger, halfway hell (hell)
Your voice calm me when mind numb (numb)
Make me wanna come home, not guns (grr)
(Pre-Chorus)
Still got flaws, ain’t healed all way (all way)
Fightin’ every day for better days (better days)

(Chorus 1)

Still tryna be man you prayed for (prayed for)
World cold, you still here though (here though)
Movin’ too fast, now slow speed (slow down)
Your love gave soul what need (what need)
Don’t wanna break hearts no more (done)
You the light through every storm (storm)
If I fall, don’t leave tonight (don’t go)
Still changin’, just give time (time)

(Verse 2)

Back then numb off pills and drank (drank)
Tryna hide trauma can’t erase (nah)
Blood on hands from choices made (made)
Pray every night sins get saved (amen)
You see little boy underneath rage (rage)
Never got love, locked in cage (cage)
Ain’t used affection, push away (away)
Still hold me down isolate (yeah)
Real love ain’t toxic games (facts)
Ain’t screamin’, crashin’, runnin’ away (nah)
Tryna build somethin’ solid trust (trust)
Not self-destruction when rough (rough)

(Pre-Chorus)

Know I hurt your heart, regret nights (those nights)
Your love guide me when lose sight (my sight)

(Chorus 2)

Still tryna better who was (who was)
Cleanin’ damage from life loved (life loved)
Only one make feel enough (enough)
Even broken and dangerous (dangerous)
Ain’t perfect, just bein’ real (real)
Tryna learn forever feel (forever)
If heaven sent angels, you one (you one)
Brought life back dead soul (yeah)

(Verse 3)

Remember nights cried in bed (cried)
Scared end up gone or feds (damn)
Out in dark while lost sleep (lost sleep)
Now hold tighter next me (next me)
Broken promises haunt brain (brain)
Finally man enough accept pain (pain)
No more runnin’ emotions hard (hard)
No more actin’ love need scars (nah)
Deserve flowers, peace, honesty (honesty)
Not chaos constantly (facts)
Workin’ on myself nobody see (see)
Wanna be safe place permanently (permanently)
(Pre-Chorus)
Trust take time when heart cut (been cut)
Swear this time ain’t givin’ up (givin’ up)

(Chorus 3)

Still tryna heal hurt inside (inside)
Learnin’ love without pride (my pride)
Only one stayed darkest nights (darkest nights)
Held me close losin’ fights (every fight)
See future every smile (smile)
Make me change lifestyle (lifestyle)
If ever lose direction life (this life)
Your voice bring me back right (back right)

(Verse 4)

Ain’t sayin’ fixed, still got wounds (still wounds)
Hear old voices empty rooms (rooms)
Don’t want that life before (before)
Don’t idolize pain anymore (nah)
Want your hand when rough (rough)
Want real family, unconditional love (love)
Want peace when close eyes (my eyes)
Not fearin’ death every night (night)
Gave somethin’ money couldn’t buy (buy)
Reason grow, not slowly die (die)
If make out darkness alive (alive)
Your love reason survived (survived)

(Pre-Chorus)

Still got demons, winnin’ now (winnin’)
Your love gave strength before (before)

(Chorus 4 / Outro)

Still tryna be better for you (for you)
Broken pieces tell truth (truth)
Came long way old roads (old roads)
Cold nights, hard drugs, lonely souls (lonely souls)
Pray grow old survive all (survive all)
Through every season and fall (every fall)
If lose myself again someday (someday)
Remind me who became when stayed... (you stayed)
Yeah...
Still fightin’... (fightin’)
Ain’t alone no more... (no more)