through the night

Lyrics

I'm fed up with having to keep up the silence
Sick of all of the hurt and all the violence
Just because all the past is behind us
Sat in the dark with nothing to remind us
Except all of the memory's that I can't erase
Staring at the man in the mirror I can't stand his face.
Still see the blood pouring down my face
So lost in this world, so low so out of place
So it's getting to a point that I'm hanging off the edge
Hanging one handed as im dangling off the ledge
Trauma at the point I can't eat fruit or veg
Step dad choking me till I was blue n red
And everyday you broke a little part of me
No wonder iv had to have years of therapy
Behind close doors there was evil no one could see
I grew up learning how evil people can be
They don't know what it's like when you are everybody's black sheep
Always on my own iv always sown what I can reap
Taking anything I can just to get sleep
And not go drown myself down in the mirky deep
And I gave you everything, every last thing that I had,
A life time of hell from you and now I just get mad
I'm just so sick of all of it so stop toying with my emotions
Always fucking drama I'm sick of all of the toxic commotions
All you did has got me falling apart
It's gotta be buried deep down in my heart
So much pain I dunno where to start
Tryina put back the peaces of a broken heart
So after a lifetime of anxiety and depression
I gotta Turned it round now to use my weakness as a weapon
Focused the pain channelled all the aggression
Mind always screaming while I'm under suppression
Down in the deep while the wave are all crashin
Pain hurt so bad that I'm rolling and thrashin
Took a few hits from the fighting and bashin
I long for a time with music and dancin

I'm lying to myself telling everyone that I'm fine
Keep a brave face on so they never see the sign
It's just another line but it's becoming a crime
Healing everyone's heart but never mending mine
They never see the scars, the pain the sacrifice
Being pulled into the darkness as I fight for my life
At the cross roads do I go left or I turn right
Just show me the spark let me see the light
Let me rise up with the strength to fight
Just give me the strength to fight through the night