Left Handed Scapegoat

Lyrics

Intro
I went missing in the quiet.
The silence learned my face.
I was gone in the hollow hours,
But I still knew the way.

Verse 1
I went missing in the quiet,
Buried under my own fear.
The little piece I left behind me
Was the part I needed here.
Right here and right now, I summon the inner beast,
The one locked behind doors of suppressed memories.
The path was always blurry, even when I was near,
A shadow of myself I could never quite hear.

Pre-Chorus
Finally found a secret exit, but I needed the code,
So I took a different trip down the astral tunnel road.
I once lived as a witness, silenced and just loathed,
Unknowingly controlled by hungry wolves in sheep’s clothes.

Chorus
I was buried in the dark,
But I came back with a spark.
All for the inner light,
All for the aching heart.
I was lost inside the shell,
Now I’m calling back my self.
A left-handed scapegoat,
A revolutionary heart.

Verse 2
They dressed my wounds in shame and called it love, called it grace,
Told me to shrink my fire, to disappear without a trace.
My voice may crack like glass, but it glows in the afterglow,
And every broken little silence has a way of letting go.

Pre-Chorus
A twist of childlike curiosity
with a new kind of mother's rage,
A family notebook came to me
double-sided cursive and on every page
details of my shattering, all the lies
and how they took my voice away
Blew the doors off my damn gates,

The "’96 spring flood of love "
Nearly drowned me then
*(... its still the same...)*
I ran out of the corn mother’s
labyrinth maze.
To find a place in my childhood
where I actually felt safe.

Chorus
I was buried in the dark,
But I came back with a spark.
All for the inner light,
All for the aching heart.
I was lost inside the shell,
Now I’m calling back my self.
A left-handed scapegoat,
A revolutionary heart.

Outro
I heard the truth beneath the noise,
a quiet flame inside my chest,
What they buried in the shadow,
I brought back from the depths.
And when the dark let go of me,
I finally saw my name,
Like a candle in the ruins,
still burning through the rain.