Straight Up Towards The Sky. ( Shayne)

Lyrics

Shayne......
GT Biscayne boysz

(Chorus 1)

Life moved too fast, I was still a kid (still a kid)
tryna play grown while the pain crept in
15 with a baby, scared but alive (terrified)
didn’t know then how hard life get with time
Puff puff… stare into the rain again (rainfall)
every choice turned into chains again
But somewhere deep inside my soul (deep down)
I still prayed someday I’d become whole
(Verse 1)
15 years old holdin’ my first born tight , Angel (my baby)
swore to God I’d give that child a better life
16 moved into my first lil’ house (grown now)
thought I finally had life figured out
Bills paid, young love, laughin’ every night (every night)
felt like maybe everything gon’ be alright
Then 17 came and the truth got dark (dark fast)
caught her sneakin’ around breakin’ my heart
Ohio flights and tears in the driveway (driveway)
my pride kept me stuck in Florida that way
Couldn’t chase her, couldn’t beg her to stay (nah)
just smoked my pain and watched love fade
Alone young with anger in my veins (my veins)
that heartbreak changed my whole brain
And by 18 them county doors swung wide (slam shut)
Sarasota jail became my second life

(Chorus 2)

In and out them cells while the years flew by (years flew)
watchin’ my whole life slowly pass me by
Every release I swore “this my last time” (last time)
next month same cuffs, same blue lights
And I still hear them county doors slam shut (slam shut)
every mistake tearin’ my soul up
But I was too broken to understand (too broken)
pain was slowly turnin’ me into a different man

(Verse 2)

22, Alexis born, my second lil’ girl (Alexis…)
for six months she became my whole world
I was holdin’ her tiny hand feelin’ peace (real peace)
thought maybe jail finally lost me
Then addiction and bad choices hit again (again)
same cold steel bars, same county pen
Missed milestones, missed birthdays too (too much)
missed hearin’ “Daddy I love you”
26 fresh out, then I met her eyes (met her)
thought she was heaven sent in disguise
She pushed me hard to stack money fast (get it)
had me thinkin’ we was built to last
I changed my hustle, cleaned myself up (I tried)
thought finally life showin’ me love
Whole time she just loved the cash flow (cash flow)
not the damaged soul underneath though

(Chorus 3)

33 and my whole world broke apart (broke apart)
woke up empty with a shattered heart
That woman I loved disappeared overnight (overnight)
took everything while I slept that night
Now the smoke thicker and the nights got long (long nights)
every memory feelin’ wrong
And I swear I stopped carin’ if I lived (gave up)
that’s when the fentanyl entered in

(Verse 3)

34, days blendin’ into nights (days to nights)
powder on the table tryna silence my mind
Four months in and my body shut down (damn)
woke up confused with people all around
Next day laughin’ like it wasn’t real (that’s crazy)
that’s addiction, make death not feel
36 came and the second OD hit harder (harder)
paramedics pale white lookin’ bothered
I remember openin’ my eyes slow (slowly)
heard one whisper “we almost lost bro”
And somehow I still kept spiralin’ down (spiralin’)
like self destruction was all I found
37 to 39 just broken memories (broken)
faces I hurt and apologies
Can’t remember half the nights I survived (survived?)
just know my soul barely stayed alive

(Chorus 4)

40 years old barely feelin’ alive (barely alive)
just wakin’ up existin’, not survivin’ life
Then she walked through that door and time froze still (froze still)
one look and I felt somethin’ real
Now the darkness don’t hit the same (not the same)
she brought warmth back into my veins
And ever since that first night in her arms (her arms)
life finally feel like it’s movin’ towards the stars

(Verse 4)

40 years broken, tired and numb (so numb)
thought true peace would never come
Then she walked in and my heart skipped beats (skipped beats)
locked eyes and the whole room got quiet for me
First night in her arms I finally slept safe (safe)
ain’t felt peace like that since eighth grade
She held my scars like they wasn’t shame (wasn’t shame)
looked at my darkness and stayed the same
Now we laughin’ in kitchens late at night (late nights)
talkin’ dreams while city lights shine bright
She remind me I’m more than mistakes (more than that)
more than county years and heartbreak
And for the first time I ain’t scared to heal (heal slow)
cause her love actually feel real
Straight up towards the sky since she came around (upwards)
after forty years she finally pulled me out (yeah)