AUTUMN INSIDE MY HEAD

Lyrics

[Intro] (Soft piano, distant ambience, heartbeat) I keep smiling... Like nothing's wrong... But every autumn... I disappear again...
[Verse 1] Leaves keep falling like the promises they made, Every scar became another price I paid. Running from the mirror, Running from my name, Breaking every good thing Before it does the same.
Every "I love you" Sounds like "goodbye" instead, So I build another prison Inside my head. You held my hand... I still expected you to leave. Funny how fear Can make a liar out of me.
[Pre-Chorus] One little fight... Now I'm somebody else. Trying to survive, I become someone they want.
Another room, Another mask, Another face to wear... But none of them Feels like me.
[Chorus] I'm the storm I always feared, Burning every bridge while wishing you'd stay here. I sabotage the love Before it has the chance, Dancing with my shadows Like it's our last dance.
The voice inside my head... It sounds like mine, But I don't recognize A single line. I wanna be happy... I swear I do... But every time it's close... I destroy it before it comes true.
[Verse 2] Every autumn feels like history repeats, Cold hands... Cold nights... Broken heartbeat.
I learned survival, Not how to heal. So every honest feeling Starts to feel unreal.
I keep switching sides When anger starts to rise. Then I switch again Just to fit inside. Who am I When everybody leaves? Maybe I've been disappearing Long before they did.
[Bridge — Naruto References] Gaara taught me Loneliness can become a shield, Until your own heart Forgets how it's supposed to feel.
Kakashi hides behind a mask, Still carrying ghosts No one ever asks. Smiling for the world... Breaking in the rain... Some scars never fade, They just learn your name.
Obito wanted love... Then became pain. One broken moment Changed everything. Sometimes I wonder... If I'm fighting the darkness... Or becoming the thing I'm trying to outrun.
[Final Chorus] I'm the storm I always feared, Watching every good thing slowly disappear. Every scar whispers, "Don't trust again." So I keep rebuilding The walls within.
The voice inside my head... It still sounds strange. Like someone stole My real name.
I wanna believe Tomorrow exists... But fear keeps convincing me I don't deserve it.
[Outro] (Soft guitar, fading piano)
If you stay... I'll probably ask why.
If you leave... I'll say I knew it.
Autumn never asked If I was ready...
It just came... And somehow...
It never really left.