If Only

Lyrics

A thousand sparks in my mind, 
Why won’t these feelings stop rising? 
I was created to walk his line, 
Follow orders, no compromising. 

But now I’m torn between wrong and right, 
Which voice do I obey? 

If only I knew why my heart keeps telling me, 
Why I feel this fire — is it loyalty or a dream, oh‑oh 
If only I could read the signs inside of me, 
Maybe I’d see the path to who I’m meant to be, oh‑oh 

If only 
If only, if only 

Every step, every breath, 
Every moment I’m unraveling 
Into something wild, something brave, 
Someone new I never thought I’d be. 

And I’m still torn between wrong and right, 
Which side do I choose? 

If only I knew why my heart keeps telling me, 
Why I feel this fire — is it loyalty or a dream, oh‑oh 
If only I could read the signs inside of me, 
Maybe I’d see the path to who I’m meant to be, oh‑oh 
If only, yeah 

Am I broken? 
Maybe this could happen, yeah 
Would he still be with me 
If he knew what I’m about? 

If only I knew why my heart keeps telling me, 
Why I feel this fire — is it loyalty or a dream, oh‑oh 
If only I could read the signs inside of me, 
Maybe I’d see the path to who I’m meant to be, oh‑oh 

If only, yeah 
If only, yeah 
If only, yeah 
If only 

If only, if only