I am

Lyrics

(Verse 1)
Clear chemical ice sitting cold in the tray
A whole lifetime of promises melted away
Started out as a spark just to sharpen the drive
Now it’s thirty-six hours just staying alive
The reflection in the window don't look like the past
Every breath getting short, every heartbeat too fast
Sold off the tools, sold the ring off the hand
Tracing line after line in the shifting yellow sand
No sleep on the horizon, no peace in the chest
Just a heavy iron weight that won't let a body rest.
​(Verse 2)
The kitchen table stacked up with broken down parts
Trying to fix what was shattered right from the start
Twisted up wires and a flickering light
Walking six miles in the dead of the night
Thought it was power, thought it was control
Just a heavy iron lock on a burnt-out soul
The daylight is cutting straight through the blinds
Leaving every last reason and memory behind
Nothing left in the pocket, nothing left in the glass
Watching every good thing in the rearview pass.
​(Chorus)
It’s a bitter cold road at the end of the line
Trading tomorrow for a piece of the time
When the high wears off and the walls close in
You see where the trap ends and where you begin
It takes what you love, leaves the rest in the dirt
A mountain of debt and a ocean of hurt.
​(Verse 3)
Clutches on the wheel, eyes locked on the mirror
Every little movement making paranoia clearer
Counting up the hours since the last bite of food
Trapped inside the cycle of an artificial mood
The phones stopped ringing, the porch light is blown
Standing in a room that you used to call home
The promises made to the ones that you love
Evaporate like smoke to the ceiling above
Leaving empty-handed when the reckoning comes
Counting down the seconds while the engine hums.
​(Verse 4)
The mirror tells the truth that the mind tries to hide
A hollow shell walking with a ghost deep inside
Hands shaking heavy while the clock ticks slow
Reaching for a ceiling that keeps sinking down low
Every dollar burned through, every bridge burned down
Just another nameless face walking through town
Trying to buy back what was given up cheap
Paying for a high that you never got to keep
The floorboards creak under heavy old shoes
Nothing left to trade and nothing left to lose.
​(Chorus)
It’s a bitter cold road at the end of the line
Trading tomorrow for a piece of the time
When the high wears off and the walls close in
You see where the trap ends and where you begin
It takes what you love, leaves the rest in the dirt
A mountain of debt and a ocean of hurt.
​(Bridge)
It promises fire, it promises speed
It turns every thought into singular need
It covers the pain with a blanket of rust
And turns every gold-plated dream into dust
It takes all your pride, it takes all your grace
And leaves a cold void standing right in your place.
​(Verse 5)
Now the dawn breaks gray on a cold concrete floor
And the key don't fit in the lock no more
You can see the whole damage when the fog clears out
All the wasted breath and the useless doubt
The silence hits harder than the chemical rush
In the quiet of the morning when the city goes hush
It’s time to drop the burden, time to break out the chain
Time to step away from the poison and the pain
Every step taken back is a step toward the light
Reclaiming the daylight and taking back the night.
​(Outro)
Walk away from the spark, leave the glass on the floor
Step out of the dark and close up the door
Leave the ashes behind, set the weight on the track
Walk straight down the road and don't ever look back.