The star you left behind
Lyrics
### 🎹 \[Verse 1\]
I learned to smile when I wanted to cry, Say that I'm okay when I'm barely alright, You used to see through the walls I would build, Now I'm just a room that the silence has filled.
I keep all your pictures where nobody goes, Pretend that I'm fine so nobody knows, And every time somebody asks me what's wrong, I tell them I'm tired, I've been tired so long.
### 🥀 \[Pre-Chorus\]
Was I too much, or was I not enough? Did you get tired of trying to love me? I replay the words that I never got to say, And wonder if I made you walk away.
### 💔 \[Chorus\]
Did I shine too little for you to stay? Was I just another star that faded away? I gave you the pieces I tried hard to hide, You held them for a moment, then said goodbye.
Now I laugh with the others, pretend I don't care, But I still look for you when nobody's there. And if love was a sky, I was lost in the blue, I was never enough, or was I just not enough for you?
### 🌙 \[Verse 2\]
I wear long sleeves over feelings you knew, Hide all the hurt that I can't talk through, They say that time makes the aching grow small, But time doesn't help when you still miss it all.
I wonder if you ever think of me, Or if you're finally the person you wanted to be, While I'm still here, in the place where we stood, Trying to convince myself I did all that I could.
### 🕊️ \[Pre-Chorus 2\]
Maybe I'm harder to love than I thought, Maybe I ruined the one thing I got, I know I shouldn't keep blaming myself, But I don't know who else to blame anymore.
### 💔 \[Chorus 2\]
Did I shine too little for you to stay? Was I just another star that faded away? I gave you the pieces I tried hard to hide, You held them for a moment, then said goodbye.
Now I laugh with the others, pretend I don't care, But I still look for you when nobody's there. And if love was a sky, I was lost in the blue, I was never enough, or was I just not enough for you?
### 🌌 \[Bridge — almost a whisper\]
I wish you could've seen me On the nights I couldn't sleep, When I'd practice being happy So my friends wouldn't worry.
I wish you'd heard the questions That I never said aloud, Would you have stayed if I'd been better? Would you still be here somehow?
And I hate that I still miss you, When I'm the one you left behind. I hate that I keep searching For the fault that's only mine.
Maybe you didn't leave because I wasn't worth it…
Maybe I just can't believe that yet.
### 🎤 \[Final Chorus — breaking vocals, strings building\]
I wish I'd been enough for you to stay, I wish I could go back and make you wanna stay. I'd hide the tears, I'd swallow every fear, I'd be somebody else if it meant you'd still be here.
And nobody knows how the silence can sound When the person you needed isn't around. So I'll smile like the stars, even if I feel blue, And pretend I'm not breaking…
Because I still can't stop missing you.
### 🌠 \[Outro — soft piano, almost spoken\]
So when you look into the mirror, And the world has made you blind, Remember, darling, you're not searching for a star…
You've been one the whole damn time.
But I wish you could've told me… Before you said goodbye.
I spent so long trying to be someone you'd love, I forgot who I was before I lost you.
And now the sky is full of stars…
But none of them feel like home.
Because the brightest one I ever knew…
Was the one that left me behind. 🌌💔