Depraved Devotion

Lyrics

[Intro – low 808 rumble, vinyl crackle, breathy female ad-libs over distant distorted guitar, 80 bpm]

[Verse 1 – intimate trap drums, soft finger snaps, husky alto vocals close-mic’d]
He walked in wearing cuffs like jewelry, eyes colder than the glass between us
Said my name like a secret he’d already tasted, and the room forgot how to breathe
I study monsters for a living, yet nothing prepared me for the way he smiled
Like he already owned the night I’d spend trying not to dream about him

[Pre-Chorus – rising synth pads, heartbeat kick, layered harmonies tightening]
Every session pulls the thread a little tighter
He knows the nightmares I never wrote down
Knows the scar beneath my collarbone
Knows the name I buried with my mother

[Chorus – dark soul hook, sidechained bass, aggressive female vocals with gritty reverb]
You want the doctor? Come and take her
I’ll trade my sanity to know what you know
But every truth costs another piece of me
And Ghost, baby, you’re collecting slow
Touch me through the glass, I feel it in my spine
You’re the devil I study and the devil I want
I’m supposed to fix you—guess the joke’s on me
‘Cause I’m the one who’s breaking while you watch

[Verse 2 – half-time groove, distorted electric guitar stabs, rap cadence switching to melodic]
He breaks into my apartment just to leave roses on my pillow
Red petals, red warnings, red flags I keep ignoring
Says he’s been mapping every lock, every camera, every weakness
Told me my father didn’t die by accident—he smiled when he said it
Now the line between patient and predator is a razor I’m dancing on
And the part of me that should run is the part that’s already gone

[Bridge – stripped, only piano and distant rain, vulnerable whispered vocals]
If I let you in, will you show me the missing years?
If I let you touch me, will you tell me why I wake up screaming your name?
I’m supposed to be the healer, but you’re healing something darker
And I’m tired of pretending I don’t like the way it hurts

[Final Chorus – full band + 808s, distorted guitar solo bleeding in, doubled aggressive vocals]
You want the doctor? Come and take her
I’ll pay with every boundary, every lie I’ve told
But every truth costs another piece of me
And Ghost, baby, the price is my soul
I’ll let you stalk the hallways of my head
As long as you keep feeding me the answers I crave
Touch her and die? Baby, that’s cute
But I’m already dying for the way you misbehave

[Outro – fading tape hiss, slowed 808 heartbeat, final whispered line with heavy reverb]
…come find me when the lights go out…