Gray Hoodie Days
by Rosie Ellie
Lyrics
Verse 1
I was there in the back row
Same face, same stare
Kids called my name once
Then I vanished in air
School bell ringing loud
My chest felt like rain
I learned how to smile
While I swallowed the pain
Pre-Chorus
Keep it in my sleeves
Keep it in my teeth
Don’t let them see it
Don’t let it break me
Hands in my pockets
Heart in a cage
Say I’m okay
But I’m not okay
Chorus
Gray hoodie days
I fade away
Gray hoodie days
I’m not okay
You never saw me
You never knew
I was screaming
Right next to you
Verse 2
At home, I’d fake laughs
Stare at the wall
Phone screen on my chest
Waiting for a call
Anxiety pacing
Round and round my room
Depression left footprints
In the dust and gloom
My thoughts got loud
Like ten alarms
I held my breath
To keep from falling apart
Wanted one hand
Somebody to stay
But I got good
At hiding the gray
Pre-Chorus
Keep it in my sleeves
Keep it in my teeth
Don’t let them see it
Don’t let it break me
Hands in my pockets
Heart in a cage
Say I’m okay
But I’m not okay
Chorus
Gray hoodie days
I fade away
Gray hoodie days
I’m not okay
You never saw me
You never knew
I was screaming
Right next to you
Bridge
If you found me then
Would you stay?
Sit on the floor
And just hear me say
I’m tired of running
Tired of the fight
I want one morning
That feels like light
Final Chorus
Gray hoodie days
I fade away
Gray hoodie days
I’m not okay
Now I see me
I’m still here too
I was surviving
Right next to you