pretend I died
Lyrics
Dark R&B – Violin / Atmospheric / Minimal Piano (Hook only)
Tempo: 68 BPM
Key: D Minor
Mood: Dark / Emotional / Cinematic
Intro (Atmospheric – no piano)
(Whisper background, violin / dark pads)
Red room… dark spaces
No room for love
In the darkest of places
Red room… cold faces
No room for love
In the darkest of places
Verse 1
I see the point to the end, it's unsatisfactory to me
We will not make it there, love wasn’t meant to be
So please let's just pretend that we never met
I'll close my eyes, you turn around, don't look back yet
Walk away in a different direction tonight
Before the memories begin their fight
And when you cry wondering how I walked away
From the love of my life that couldn’t stay
Please just pretend I died
That you did what you could just to survive
All the what-ifs, all we could’ve become
Two lonely souls outrunning the spotted dots… red Sting followed a straight line back to me
(Violin enters softly, subtle tension)
Chorus (Atmospheric / strings)
Spotting lights in my red room
Of the girl with the long dark hair
I pretend she's just a bad faded memory
Of a person who's forgotten all about me there
But I look closer through the shadows
And remember she's dead to me
So I let my tears fall slowly
Like the years passing through me, go back to my painful stories
(Background whisper)
Red room… dark spaces
No room for love in the darkest places
Verse 2
It's a brand new day, but years gone passed
I buried you deep where the shadows last
In the darkest white specks of my mind
Like photographs never fully defined
Underdeveloped pictures in a secret red room
Where silence echoes like a quiet tomb
I numb the pain with memories untold
Of a girl with long dark hair in yellow and gold
Barely any makeup, just a quiet glow
She caught my eye when the world moved slow
But when I turned around like the wind she felt her hand on my shoulder again, so I close my eyes I wish painful thoughts goodbye
Peeling back memories I leaned upon
Now I've got nothing left in these blind spots
I once called love at first sight
Hook (Piano + violin)
(Piano enters here, chords slow, emotional; violin plays lead melody over it)
When the dead memories fade
What's left for two souls to save?
Two people who swore we'd walk opposite ways
Even if both of us wanted to stay
Between blurred faces and broken dreams
Nothing's ever what it seems
So we disappear into yesterday's haze
Two hearts walking opposite ways
(Violin instrumental break – emotional solo / echo vocal ad-libs)
Verse 3 (Intimate – no piano)
It's a never-ending pain in my love storyline
I can't seem to find what others say they find
They say they understand my pain
But they're married ever after, living fine
I see us still in pictures in my mind
Two kids playing by a white fence line
Photographs I took of our little world
The day you smiled and said baby number three right on time
That's when I looked at the sonogram
Saw everything clear for the first time
Before the red… before the blur
Before the faces lost their brightness
All the laughter fading into goodbyes one last time
All the happiness undone
Painful memories I'll never get to have
All because I looked away once
Final Chorus (Piano + powerful violin – hook repeat)
Spotting lights in my red room
Of the girl with the long dark hair
I pretend she's just a bad faded memory
Of a person who's forgotten me there
But I look closer through the shadows
And remember she's dead to me
So I let my tears fall slowly
Like the years passing through me
Outro (Atmospheric – violin / dark pads, whisper)
Red room… dark spaces
No room for love
In the darkest of places
Pretend I died…
Pretend I died…
(Optional whisper / echo)
Look for the blurry images to find what you couldn't replace
Then I'll just walk in a different direction
From the girl in the spotted past