lost in the system

Lyrics

Verse 1
Another worker, another face, another person leaves,
They tell me that they're here to help, but that's hard to believe.
Staff come and staff go, like seasons changing fast,
And every time I start to trust, they're gone just like the last.
This place is just four walls and rules I never chose,
Everybody sees my anger, nobody sees my lows.
They ask me if I'm okay, I say "yeah" and look away,
'Cause every time I tell the truth, nothing seems to change.
Pre-Chorus
I've been screaming in silence for so long,
Trying to be strong when everything feels wrong.
And I don't think anybody understands,
What it's like carrying this pain in my hands.
Chorus
I'm lost in the system, lost in the crowd,
Everyone's talking but nobody hears me out.
I've been fighting these battles inside my head,
While people write reports on things I've never said.
I'm crying for help but it falls through the cracks,
Everybody moves forward while I'm falling back.
And I wonder if anybody sees what I hide,
Or if I'm just another kid they leave behind.
Rap Verse 1
Yeah, social workers saying that they're doing their best,
But half the time it feels like they're just ticking a test.
Reading off a file like they know who I am,
Never really listening, never trying to understand.
Mental health's getting worse, but they don't wanna know,
Tell me "give it some time" while I'm sinking below.
Every meeting feels fake, every promise gets broke,
And I'm tired of pretending everything's a joke.
Got anxiety, pain, and a head full of doubt,
Trying to explain but nobody hears me out.
I've asked for support, I've asked for some care,
But it feels like nobody's really there.
Rap Verse 2
Yeah, they say they're helping, but it don't feel legit,
Got me feeling invisible, like nobody gives a shit.
Social workers talking, but they never seem to fit,
Making promises for months and then they quit.
I'm sick of being told that everything will be alright,
When I'm fighting all these demons every single night.
They read another report, then they call it a day,
But they don't have to live this life or feel this pain.
Social workers are shit, that's how it feels to me,
When I'm asking for help but nobody seems to see.
Got mental health struggles, I'm begging to be heard,
But all I ever get back are the same empty words.
Staff come, staff go, nobody stays around,
Trying to keep my head up while I'm sinking down.
Everybody says they're here, but where are they now?
I'm still standing here alone, trying to figure it out.
Verse 2
They see behaviours, they don't see the hurt,
Don't see all the nights where I'm feeling my worst.
Don't see all the memories I carry around,
Or the weight on my chest when nobody's around.
I wish somebody listened without judging me first,
Without treating me like I'm a problem or a curse.
I don't need another speech about being okay,
I just need somebody who'll actually stay.
Bridge
Maybe I'm angry 'cause I've been let down,
Maybe I'm tired of being passed around.
Maybe the reason I struggle so much,
Is I've spent years without enough love.
Maybe if somebody looked past my mistakes,
They'd see how much pressure one person can take.
How hard I've been trying just to survive,
Even on days when I don't feel alive.
Final Chorus
I'm lost in the system, lost in the crowd,
Everyone's talking but nobody hears me out.
I've been fighting these battles inside my head,
Trying so hard not to break instead.
I'm crying for help but it falls through the cracks,
Everybody moves forward while I'm falling back.
But I'll keep on speaking even if they don't listen,
Keep on hoping even when the future seems distant.
Outro
Another worker, another goodbye,
Another night staring at the sky.
Still waiting for someone to understand,
That I'm more than a case file in their hands.
Staff come, staff go, and I'm still here,
Carrying the pain and the fear year after year.
Lost in the system, trying to find my way,
Just hoping somebody finally listens one day.