What is true love?

Lyrics

Yeah…
I say it, but I don’t know if I mean it
Maybe I’m scared to believe it
Maybe love and pain got the same face
Everybody tellin’ me they love me, I freeze up
Heart so cold, every memory got me teed up
Used to say “I love you” hopin’ he would see us
Now I hear that word and my whole soul locks
I don’t know what love is
I just know what love’s not
If you really care, why the hell does it hurt so much?
Tryna learn the meaning while I’m bleedin’ from the cuts
Growing up, I was talkin’ to a wall
Every night sayin’ “love you,” no response at all
Started thinkin’ maybe I was broken from the start
Maybe I was just another burden in the dark
Now I got trust issues stitched into my veins
Every “I love you” hit different in my brain
People say they got me, I don’t know if it’s true
‘Cause the first man I believed in never followed through
I ain’t mad, I’m just damaged from the silence
Tryna find peace but my head move violent
And I hate when I’m attached ‘cause I panic
Thinkin’ everybody leave me empty-handed
Maybe love ain’t words
Maybe love’s consistency
Maybe I’m afraid
‘Cause nobody gave that shit to me
Everybody tellin’ me they love me, I freeze up
Heart so cold, every memory got me teed up
Used to say “I love you” hopin’ he would see us
Now I hear that word and my whole soul locks
I don’t know what love is
I just know what love’s not
I overthink texts, overthink affection
Turn small doubts into deep depression
Not ‘cause they wrong, I just learned protection
Built these walls outta fear and rejection
And I know that everybody ain’t him
But trauma got a way of making light grow dim
So if I pull away, it ain’t hatred
I just don’t know how to trust what love is
Still, somewhere deep down I want it
Real enough to feel safe inside of
Not the kind that disappear when it’s hard
Not the kind that leave a permanent scar
Maybe one day I’ll say it and mean it
Maybe one day I’ll hear it and believe it
Until then…
I’m still tryna learn what love means.