Do You Remember. ( Shayne)

Lyrics

Shayne........

(Chorus 1)

Do you remember them nights we thought we was grown? (grown)
first lil’ house but my soul felt alone
Party lights, loud smoke, bottles on the floor (everywhere)
didn’t know addiction was knockin’ at the door
Puff puff passsss… let the blunt drift slow (drift slow)
all these memories fade like smoke
And what hurt the most when I think back now (think back)
half the time with my kids I can’t remember how

(Verse 1)

16 years old keys in my shaky hands (young kid)
thought havin’ my own spot made me a man
House packed every night, music too loud (too loud)
everybody drunk while we smoked through clouds
At first it felt free like life finally started (finally)
young dumb heart reckless and broken-hearted
Bottles lined up all across the sink (drinkin’)
never stoppin’ long enough to think
I laughed a lot back then but the pain stayed hidden (stayed hidden)
started needin’ substances just to feel livin’
And lookin’ back now man the truth disgust me (disgust me)
so many moments with my kids feel fuzzy
Pictures in my phone help me remember faces (faces)
cause alcohol blurred too many places
Now I sit ashamed replayin’ the past (replayin’)
wonderin’ how them years disappeared so fast

(Chorus 2)

Do you remember? 18 in them county chains (county chains)
drinkin’ and smokin’ had me losin’ my brain
Judge looked down said “boy you make somethin’ from nothin’” (damn)
whole courtroom laughed while my chest felt crushed in
Puff puff passsss… county smoke in the air (cold nights)
young and lost like nobody cared
And every slam of them cell doors back then (slam shut)
felt like life closin’ in again

(Verse 2)

18 years old all alone in cuffs (all alone)
couldn’t tell back then I was damaged as fuck
Every night drinkin’ till my thoughts went numb (went numb)
smoke clouds thick while the county bus come
Gray walls, cold trays, fluorescent lights (cold lights)
every night felt the same inside
Judge looked at me said “have fun son” (have fun)
like my whole life already done
And maybe he seen what I couldn’t see yet (couldn’t see)
a broken boy drownin’ in regret
Every release I swore I’d clean my act (this time)
same week I’m drunk and high right back
Puff puff passsss… exhale through my pain (through it)
all them demons still lived in my brain
And every choice I made from hurt and pride (hurt and pride)
slowly stole pieces of my life

(Chorus 3)

Do you remember? 21 out in the rain (in the rain)
thought I’d finally reconnect again
But everybody sayin’ “I got you” disappeared (disappeared)
left me drunk and high facin’ fears
Puff puff passsss… bottles next to the sink (next to me)
I was too numb to even think
And every goodbye carved wounds so deep (so deep)
I stopped believin’ people really keep

(Verse 3)

21 years old tryna see my girls again (my girls)
thought maybe life finally let me in
But BM already had a different plan (different plan)
I just played the role and ain’t understand
One minute I’m holdin’ onto hope tight (hope tight)
next minute everybody gone overnight
I slept outside more nights than I admit (cold nights)
every “I got you” turned counterfeit
Friends disappeared soon as the money dried (money dried)
women disappeared when they seen inside
And I was always high tryna kill the ache (kill it)
cause sober thoughts too much to take
Puff puff passsss… liquor burnin’ my chest (burnin’)
tryna convince myself I’m blessed
But deep down I knew I was slowly dyin’ (deep down)
smilin’ outside while inside cryin’

(Chorus 4)

Do you remember? 39 back at Mama’s place (Mama’s house)
lookin’ disappointment dead in the face
She asked “are you proud honey?” tears hit my eyes (my eyes)
cause she already knew behind my lies
Puff puff passsss… fentanyl nights almost killed me (almost)
what a shame that life became me
But 40 brought somethin’ I ain’t expectin’ then (didn’t expect)
love finally walked in

(verse 4)

39 years old back sleepin’ at Mama’s house (Mama’s house)
feel like life completely burned me out
She looked at me soft said “you proud honey?” (you proud?)
I just looked down cause the truth felt ugly
She ain’t say fentanyl out loud to me (nah)
but in my Mama’s heart she knew the story
All them overdoses, all them sleepless nights (dark nights)
all them times I barely survived life
Then 40 came and I walked in that spot (that spot)
restaurant lights and my heart just stopped
Locked eyes with her and the room got still (got still)
didn’t know then she was gon’ help me heal
Now she hold me close when my mind get dark (mind get dark)
helpin’ put together my shattered heart
For once life don’t feel like survival mode (not anymore)
for once I finally feel hope (yeah)

Shayne......

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