lost

Lyrics

so much is lost to my addiction so many memories I have forgot people places even who I am struggling to numb this pain and the shame that I carry from the things I have done hurting the ones I love killing myself just to feel numb wishing for death just to end it all stuck in the hell I caused feeding my addiction numbing my heart full of pain and shame praying for the Lord just to end it all wishing for my life to change over and over again just to be free from the hell of my addiction wanting no pain and loved ones I have lost freedom from the poison I called my only friend no running no hiding from the stains of my past doing what I can to change myself for the future hoping and praying and insanity of my addiction with each day I resisting to feed the temptations of my disease choosing to live my life clean and sober we doing what I can to make the next right choice and the next right step steadily working hard on breaking this insanity of addiction