tip toe through the pain ( Shayne )

Lyrics

(Intro)

Shayne......
Biscayne boysz......

(Slow emotional vocals)
Yeah… yeah… (mm-mm)
Sittin’ here reminiscing ‘bout them old days…
Little kid eyes, watchin’ grown folks laugh together (laugh together)
Bottle in they hands, smiles on they faces…
Then one little thing change the whole room…
Now it’s yellin’… screamin’… doors slammin’…
“Get out!” “Go away!” “What you doin’ in here boy?”
Damn…

(Verse 1)

As a child I remember watchin’ everybody drink (drink)
Laughin’ at the table, made family look in sync (in sync)
For a second it felt warm, felt safe in my eyes
Then somebody get drunk and the whole mood died (whole mood died)
Enter the room, attitudes change quick (quick)
Now it’s screamin’ and yellin’, tempers gettin’ lit (lit)
I was lookin’ for some love, got abuse instead
Little boy confused, hidin’ tears in the bed (in the bed)
God forbid you cried or made one little sound
That belt or that hand come flyin’ back around (around)
Didn’t know enough, thought the problem was me
Whole time grown folks fightin’ demons I couldn’t see

(Chorus 1)

So I learned to tip toe through the pain (through the pain)
Stay quiet, don’t speak, don’t complain (don’t complain)
Bottle always in they hands like a loaded gun
And the fury always comin’ for someone (someone)
I was just a kid tryna find my way
But hurt people pushed they hurt my way

(Verse 2)

Abuse and self-hate from they own past lives (past lives)
Couldn’t heal themselves so they killed our light (our light)
Degradin’ me for things that made no sense
Just to make themselves feel strong for a moment (a moment)
I remember nights starin’ at my plate (my plate)
Food I ain’t like but that was all we ate (all we ate)
Instead of understanding, all I got was rage
Ridiculed and hit at such a young age (young age)
Learned to hide away, stay out the sight
Prayin’ I could make it through another night (another night)
Walkin’ on eggshells all around the house
Too scared to even let emotions out

(Chorus 2)

So I learned to tip toe through the pain (through the pain)
Tryna dodge storms I ain’t create (ain’t create)
Every bottle turned love into fear
Still hear them angry voices in my ear (in my ear)
I was only tryna learn and grow
But trauma turned my young heart cold

(Verse 3)

Such a shame I became the same sometimes (sometimes)
Searchin’ for happiness at the bottom of the wine (the wine)
Tryna numb memories I ain’t ever healed
Pain buried deep still cuttin’ like steel (like steel)
Always lookin’, never really findin’ peace
Temporary highs never bring relief (relief)
Now I understand what was passin’ down
Generational hurt just gets passed around (passed around)
And I still remember that little kid face
Just wantin’ some love, just wantin’ his place (his place)
Not knowin’ the anger was never his fault
Just adults too broken to stop they assault

(Chorus 3)

Tip toe through the pain, don’t wake the storm (wake the storm)
Little child heart never really formed (really formed)
Tryna survive in a house full of rage
Growin’ up too fast at a young age (young age)
Bottle after bottle, still empty inside
Whole family wounds they was tryna hide

(Chorus 4)

Tip toe through the pain, that’s how I survived (I survived)
Learned to bury hurt and keep it inside (inside)
But I’m tired of searchin’ in bottles for peace
Tired of runnin’ from the child in me (child in me)
Maybe one day all this hurt gon’ end
Maybe broken hearts really can mend
Outro
(Soft emotional vocals fading)
Yeah…
Little kid never deserved that pain (never deserved it)
Never deserved them angry hands… them angry words…
Just wanted love…
Just wanted somebody to understand (understand)
But hurt people hurt people…
And sometimes that bottle become they best friend (best friend)
While the child inside you slowly fades away…
Mm-mm…
Still searchin’…
Still hopin’ to heal someday…