Abandoned
by Ava
Lyrics
Verse 1
You left your boots by the back door
Mud on the mat
One loose lace
Mom washed your cup
Set it upside down
Said
"He just needs some space"
Your jacket stayed on the same chair
Keys on the hook by the light
I watched that door every Sunday
You never walked back inside
Chorus
You were a ghost in a full house
Name on my tongue
But it hurt to speak out
I learned to clap with one hand
Cheering for a man I never really had
You taught me how to miss
By never being there
My whole childhood talking
To your empty chair
Verse 2
School play night
I was a raindrop
Dripping in paper and glue
Left one ticket in my backpack
Just in case it reached you
Mom smiled wide from the third row
Eyes shining wet
Trying to hide
I bowed to the sound of strangers
Pretending you were in the lights
Chorus
You were a ghost in a full house
Name on my tongue
But it hurt to speak out
I learned to clap with one hand
Cheering for a man I never really had
You taught me how to miss
By never being there
My whole childhood talking
To your empty chair
Bridge
Do you ever wonder
How tall I stand now?
If my laugh sounds like yours did
When you still stuck around?
I built my own last name
From the cracks you left behind
You walked out of my life
But you don't get my mind (no more)
Chorus
You were a ghost in a full house
But I'm not scared of the dark in me now
I learned to clap with both hands
For the woman I became in your silence
You taught me what I need
By never being there
I fill my own table
And move your empty chair