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Verse 1
I walked a mile,
just to show up again,
Cold rain on my face,
I hoped she'd let me in,
the shame that I felt,
but i met you again,
I slept for a week,
slept in my old bed,
comeing down off shit,
I just wanted it to end.

Pre-Chorus
I count to ten,
Then count again,
My own mind,
Keeps calling in,
I taste the want
I taste the need
then I flipped out
just like a fene
left again for a week
then 1 more time I O-Deed

But I’m still here
I’m still young
I'm back for good now,
to be your mom.

[Chorus)
I hold on tight,
I choose you,
I'll fix myself,
I'll be brand new,
And then i can show you,
and then i can teach you,
If I slip up,
small hiccup,
Know that ill still pickup,
Myself for you again,
With no time waiting,
from when and then.

Verse 2
I missed three birthdays,
And so much more,
i sat with people that were poor,
walkin 20 minutes to bathe on a beach shore,
water bottles kept coming but we always needed more,
peeing in a bush, if you dont know the hub life,
well its pretty hardcore.

always watching your back,
walkin around, fear of being attacked,
the people around there were pretty facked,
but im done with the down and im done with the crack,
i wanted to come home, i wanted to come back.

(Pre-Chorus)

Rap
I learned my triggers got names and faces,
Same old devil in a thousand places,
One step back can feel like miles,
But I know that road, its been a while,
Some get clean, some just give up,
some fall back down, after they get up.
Im not perfect, I fuck up,
I don’t need that life anymore, i gave it up.

(Chorus)

Bridge
And if tomorrow breaks me,
I’ll still know my name,
I can try my best,
And still not be the same
Its not over, i still fight
That’s just one struggle
of leaving the fast life.
hey, day by day,
i choose to stay,
and choose this way,
but im not okay.