Heart turned Cold

Lyrics

Verse 1
Look at this life, man
I turned hard, I turned hard
Same face, new scars
Same breath, colder heart
I was a good kid once
With dirt on my knuckles
Now the whole block know
I don't bend, I don't buckle

Mama used to pray loud
While the fan kept spinning
I was down by the steps
With the wrong boys grinning
Back then it was small talk
Then it got real quick
One bad choice, one cheap lie
And a whole life shifted

I seen names on the wall
I seen tears on the tile
I seen friends turn to smoke
In the blink of a while
Had so much inside of me
Like a storm in a jar
Now it's knives in my tongue
And a bruise where I are

Straight up menace to society
I hear it in the tone
Say my name like a warning
Like "leave that boy alone"
Such variety
How I move, how I swing
One day calm, one day chaos
One day death in my ring

Pre-Chorus
And I had so much inside of me
But I locked it away
Put my warmth in a box
And I left it in the rain
Now the old me's a ghost
With his hand on my shoulder
Says "you better come back"
But I just grow colder

Chorus
Look at this life, man
I turned hard
I turned hard
Straight up menace
Straight up menace
That's my card
That's my card

Look at this life, man
I turned hard
I turned hard
I got cold stories
Cold stories
And they scar hard
They scar hard

Verse 2
I remember the kitchen
With the spoon and the boil
How the steam hit the window
How the floorboards moaned
Now I'm late with a pulse
And a stare like steel
If I smile, it's a threat
If I talk, it's real

I learned names by the silence
Learned fear by the door
Learned the sound of a heel
On a hallway floor
Learned how trust get expensive
When the rent due twice
Learned a man can look blessed
And still roll the dice

Now I'm a cap peelin murderer
That's the story they tell
'Cause I popped off from nothing
And I fell through hell
Could tell you some cold stories
You ain't never heard of
Like a kid in a suit
With a soul full of dirt, bruh

I seen a friend get rich
Then get weak for applause
I seen a brother get snapped
By the weight of his flaws
I seen moms in the church
With their hands to the sky
While the cops at the curb
Made another kid lie

And me?
I kept walking
Like my shadow had a chain
Every step hit heavy
Every thought said pain
The streets don't love nobody
They just loan you a name
Then they ask for your blood
When you play in their game

Bridge
If I told you the truth
You'd look away fast
'Cause the worst of my nights
Don't belong in the past
I been built from the broke parts
Screws loose, glassed up
Now I wear all my damage
Like a suit zipped up

Chorus
Look at this life, man
I turned hard
I turned hard
Straight up menace
Straight up menace
That's my card
That's my card

Look at this life, man
I turned hard
I turned hard
I got cold stories
Cold stories
And they scar hard
They scar hard

Outro
Look at this life, man
Ain't no clean way through
You can save your advice
I don't need what you knew
I had so much inside of me
Now it's locked in the dark
And the boy I was born as
Got lost in the marks

Look at this life, man
I turned hard
I turned hard
And the coldest stories
The coldest stories
Come from scars
Come from scars