NEVER BEEN IN LOVE

Lyrics

Verse 1 — low, smoky

I learned to want before I learned to stay,
Learned how to burn just to get through the day.
My mind runs wild when the room gets still,
And my body starts talking when my heart never will.

I say, “I need you, don't make me wait,”
Like desire is a door and you're holding the gate.
I need the rush, I need the release,
Then suddenly I'm quiet…
Finally at peace.

But baby, don't mistake my hunger for love,
I've been reaching for something I can't name enough.
Maybe I've been chasing a feeling so strong
'Cause nobody ever showed me where I belonged.

Pre-Chorus — building

And I don't want the spotlight,
I don't want everybody's eyes.
I hide behind the performance
When I'm terrified inside.

So when I say, “Come closer,”
Maybe what I'm really saying is—

Chorus — powerful

I've never been in love…
Not the kind that lets you breathe.
Not the kind that holds your shaking hands
And says, “You don't have to leave.”

I've known desire,
I've known the fire,
I've known what it means to lose control.
But I've never had somebody
Touch the woman in my soul.

I've been craving the climax,
But maybe I've been craving connection.
I've been begging somebody to find me
Underneath all this protection.

I've never been in love…
Maybe that's what I've been running from.

Verse 2 — bluesier

There's a storm behind these eyes,
A thousand thoughts I can't turn off.
Sometimes my body screams so loud
I don't know what my heart forgot.

And when I want you, I want you now,
Not tomorrow, not someday.
I need somebody who can read my silence
When my words get in the way.

I've scared good men with the fire in me,
Made them think that's all I'll ever be.
But there's a woman underneath this flame
Who just wants somebody to know her name.

Not conquer me.
Not control me.
Not use my hunger as a game.

Just hold me when the adrenaline fades
And love me when I'm not performing.

Pre-Chorus — softer

'Cause maybe I learned to perform
When I was afraid to be seen.
Maybe intensity felt safer
Than letting somebody get close to me.

And maybe the hardest thing
Isn't letting somebody touch my skin—

It's letting somebody
Touch my heart
And not run when they get in.

Chorus — bigger

I've never been in love…
Not the kind that lets you breathe.
Not the kind that sees the woman
Behind everything you need.

I've known desire,
I've known the fire,
I've known the ache of wanting more.
But I've never had somebody
Make me feel safe enough to fall.

I've been chasing the climax,
Trying to quiet all the noise.
Maybe I wasn't searching for a body—
Maybe I was searching for a voice

That says,
"You don't have to perform for me.
You don't have to prove you're enough.
You don't have to burn yourself alive
Just to feel somebody's love."

Bridge — stripped down, almost whispered

What if I don't need to be fixed?
What if I just need to be known?

What if the woman who says
"I need you now"
Has really been saying
"Please don't leave me alone."

What if my body learned
How to ask for what my heart couldn't say?

What if I've been looking for love
In the only language
I knew how to speak?

Instrumental — dark jazz / blues guitar

Final Chorus — full power

I've never been in love…
But I'm learning what it means.
Maybe love ain't losing control—
Maybe love is feeling free.

I can want you fiercely
Without giving myself away.
I can feel this fire inside me
And still choose how I stay.

I don't need somebody
Just to make the hunger disappear.
I need somebody who can hold me
When there's nothing left but tears.

I've never been in love…
But maybe I'm finally ready.

Not for somebody to save me.
Not for somebody to own me.

Just somebody who can see me—
And stay.

Outro — whispered, fading

I've known the fire…
I've known the need…

But maybe love is what happens
When somebody finally sees
the woman underneath the heat.

And doesn't run.

Maybe…

I've never been in love.

Maybe I've just never been safe enough
to let myself fall.