Who was I supposed to be?

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I wish I didn’t spend my nights wishing for a different life.
I wish my mind wasn’t consumed in all the what ifs and regrets So many roads behind me, so many things I’d change,
But time won’t turn around for anyone the same.I’ve lived half my life already,There’s no undoing yesterday.I’m still searching through the pieces,Trying to understand what made me this way I can’t remember being young, My childhood fades into the grey.I thought I came from something good,Maybe some answers slipped away.There are stories I’ll never know,Questions and no answers left behind.But I know my heart is honest,Even when my world isn’t kind.I work seven days a week just to barely survive,Giving everything I’ve got just to keep this dream alive.I’ve fought demons no one ever knew I’ve fought through darker days.So tell me when it’s my turn,When does the sunshine find my way?I thought that I had a purpose,
But it’s getting harder to see.
Maybe I’m still becoming
Who i was supposed to be.
I crossed an ocean chasing hope,
Left my family and my friends.
Started over in a new place,
Only to meet the same old end.
I keep wondering if I’m broken,
Or just built differently somehow.
I keep waiting for the light to find me,But it always passes by somehow.I’m scared of leaving this world alone,With empty hands and no one home.I just want peace before my name Becomes another memory fading in the rain
Still I lift my head and ask the heavens
“Is there a place where I belong?
I have been searching for so long Maybe luck just lost my address.
Maybe hope just missed m my door.
But until my last breath finds me,
I’ll keep praying for a little more.I wish I didn’t wish for another life. Why can’t it just stop Passing Me By? I wish I didn’t spend so much time comparing myself to someone else,
Or wondering what my life would’ve been if I’d chosen something else.
Half my years are in the rearview,
There ain’t no road that leads back home.
You can’t rewrite the chapters,
You can only carry on.
I don’t remember being little,
Just pieces scattered in my mind.
Sometimes I wonder what shaped me,
Or what got lost with all that time.
I thought I was raised the right way,
Maybe that’s still true somehow.
There are answers I won’t ever find,
But I’m still here wondering about my past I’ve made mistakes,
I’ve walked through nights I thought would never end.
But every scar reminds me
 I found a way to breathe again I keep waiting on tomorrow,
Praying it’ll finally come.
Wondering when life gets easier,
Wondering when my race is run.I thought that I was meant for something,
But that dream keeps slipping by.
Maybe I just missed my moment,
Or maybe it’s just passing me by.I left my family far behind me,
Crossed a border for a new life Left the people that all knew me,
Thinking I’d find something more.
But everywhere I go I carry
 The same heart inside my chest.
You can change the town you’re living in,
But you can’t outrun the rest.
I know one day this road will end,
And no one will remember where I’ve been.
.
Holding on to dreams that barely seem possible now .
Maybe luck forgot my name,
But if tomorrow finally finds me,
I’ll be right here hoping that it’s finally found me
‘Cause somewhere underneath this tired soul,
There’s still a fire that I was supposed to find and to call mine
If tomorrow’s got a place for me,
I hope it finally calls my name.
‘Cause after everything I’ve lived through…
I’d still choose to believe
There’s more to this than pain. I wish I wasn’t growing older and the lines I wear on my face didn’t show my time I’m scared I’ll close my eyes one day
With no one’s hand to hold.
I don’t need a perfect ending,
I just hope before I’m gone,
I don’t have to be alone.
I wake up wondering who I am,
Like somewhere I got left behind.
Been searching for my purpose,
But it’s hiding from these tired eyes.
But I’ve been chasing it for years now,
And I don’t know where it ran.
I feel like I burned out before I ever caught a flame.
Like I was meant for something bigger,
But I never found my purpose.
I watch the world keep turning,
While I’m standing in the rain.
How do some hearts find sunshine 
While mine keeps finding pain?
Sometimes I catch myself wishing 
I could live somebody else’s life.
They make it look so easy,
While I’m still learning how to survive.
I wish I didn’t spend my nights wishing I was someone else I’ve been looking for my purpose 
For what feels like all my life.
Like I burned out before the fire
 Ever had a chance to shine.
Who was I supposed to be?
 Who would I have been……If life had been a little kinder
 To the person I’ve become Who am I beneath the struggle?
Who was before the hurt?
Did I slowly lose myself…
Or was I always meant to live the life i have had? So if tomorrow hears this song,
Maybe it’ll finally see…
I’ve spent my whole life asking,
“Who was I supposed to bE?