Run It Back ( Shayne)

Lyrics

(Chorus 1)

Sometimes I wish I could rewind time (rewind)
go back before them dark nights stole my mind (my mind)
maybe leave the heartbreak somewhere far behind (far away)
maybe save that younger me before he crossed that line (damn)
I been carryin’ scars that don’t fade easy (nah)
smilin’ on the outside but inside bleedin’ (inside bleedin’)
If I had one chance, I’d do some things right
God, I wish I could run it back one night

(Verse 1)

Back when life felt slower and the sky seemed blue
before betrayal taught me what pain could do (facts)
I was just a kid tryna feel important
didn’t know one wrong road lead straight to torment
Started hangin’ with the wrong crowd after dark
every bad decision left another mark
thought drinkin’ and pills made the hurt disappear
whole time I was drownin’ deeper every year (deeper)
Mama cried while I slammed that door shut
I was too angry to notice her heart crushed
Wish I could go back, hug her little longer
tell her “your boy gon’ make it out stronger”
Cause now I see pain passed down like chains
hurt people hurt people, that’s how trauma stay
I became everything I swore I’d never be
now I stare in the mirror like “what happened to me?”

(Chorus 2)

If I could go back I’d love different (different)
stop givin’ my heart to people inconsistent (nah)
I’d leave them sleepless nights in another lifetime
stop heartbreak from turnin’ my soul ice cold inside
Too many tears fell where nobody seen (nobody)
too many fake smiles coverin’ up me (yeah)
If I had one wish before my time gone
I’d go back and fix where it all went wrong

(Verse 2)

I remember county calls late at night (late nights)
hear my babies askin’ “Daddy you alright?”
that pain hit different when you all alone
cold steel bed and nobody pickin’ up the phone
I missed birthdays, Christmas mornings too
missed little moments parents supposed to do
And I can’t lie, that guilt still haunt me bad
cause them kids deserved the father I never had
Lost partners to addiction and them fast lives
seen obituaries more than sunshine
Every funeral made my chest cave in
start wonderin’ why the good die and I’m still breathin’
Maybe God kept me here for a reason
even when my demons had me barely breathin’
Cause somehow I survived them crashes and ODs
when honestly there was better people than me

(Chorus 3)

I wish I could erase some memories (erase ‘em)
all them nights I cried alone mentally (alone)
take back every time I pushed love away (why?)
cause I was scared everybody leave someday
Now I’m tryna heal what the past broke (past broke)
learn how to breathe without the smoke (puff puff)
If tomorrow gave me one more chance
I’d go back and teach my heart how to dance

(Verse 3)

Then you came when my world felt dead (so dead)
looked in my eyes and saw the hurt I kept
Most people only seen the anger and rage
you seen the broken child trapped in a cage
I ain’t know how to handle real love
kept waitin’ for you to finally give up
But you stayed through my panic attacks and silence
through them nights my thoughts got violent
You kissed my forehead said “baby breathe”
whole time I thought nobody needed me
Now we laughin’ in the kitchen late night slow dancin’
feels weird finally havin’ somethin’ lasting
And maybe I can’t rewrite my past
but with you I finally feel safe at last
You make me wanna grow instead of self destruct
for the first time ever maybe I’m enough

(Chorus 4)

Sometimes I still wanna turn back clocks (turn back)
rewrite them nights full of pain and loss (pain and loss)
but maybe every scar led me right here (right here)
to the people that finally make life clear
I still got wounds but they closin’ slow (slowly)
still fight demons nobody know (facts)
But if that younger Shayne could see me now
he’d finally smile and be proud somehow

(Verse 4)

I still battle thoughts in the middle the night
still got storms I’m learnin’ to fight
But now when I fall I don’t stay there long
cause I finally got people helpin’ me stay strong
I wanna show my kids a different way
teach ‘em love don’t gotta hurt everyday
Teach ‘em real men cry and still survive
teach ‘em scars don’t mean you dead inside
And if I ever got to speak to old me
I’d say “hold on, you gon’ someday be free”
Yeah heartbreak changed me, left deep scars
but it also made me treasure who you are
Life ain’t perfect, I still break down sometimes
still got regrets and ghosts in my mind
But I ain’t runnin’ from myself no more
I finally found somethin’ worth fightin’ for