Stolen back to hell
Lyrics
(Verse 1)
A sound splits the air and my chest locks up tight
Heart hammering so hard against my ribs I start to resist but i lose the fight
I can't move or speak or do anything at all.
One second I’m here, next second I’m gone—
back in that room, back in the fire, back where I’m just a kid
Their eyes burn into me, hands on my skin,
I’m eight years old again, trapped in that hell..
Sweat soaks through my shirt,
I had nobody to tell
then knees hit the floor...
and i can here all the yells...
I’m screaming inside but nobody hears anymore.
The world keeps moving, I’m frozen in place,
drowning in a memory that still fucks with my FAITH!
(Verse 2)
I walk through the crowds i cant stand, but I’m not really there
I see the world around me statt to blurr
Every stranger’s voice drags me under the tide,
I’m smiling at them while I’m dying inside.
My hands shake when i have to speak, throat closes up dry,
I’m here and I’m not—a child running to hide
The past rips through my ribs like it owns every breath,
I don’t know if I’ll ever crawl out of this death.
(Pause)
(Chorus)
But I stand up anyway, legs shaking like hell
I fight through the vomit, the panic, the smell.
The flashbacks can drag me down,
they can fuck with my head,
but I’m not going to drown!
yea I’m not fucking dead.
I rise like a Phoenix that’s been beaten and scarred,
I claw my way forward, I don’t fall apart.
The past can reach in, but it won’t take me down—
I’m the storm now, bitch, and I’m wearing the crown.
(Bass thumping like a heartbeat)
(Verse 3)
I didn’t give up when the nights dragged me under,
when I woke up screaming with my fists full of thunder.
I sat in the dark shaking, covered in sweat,
told the therapist shit I ain’t said to nobody yet.
Flashbacks still hit—hard, ugly, and mean—
but I breathe through the chokehold and I ground myself free
Every scar on my body, every bend in my mind,
is proof that I lived and i fucking thrive
I’m learning to stay when the panic says run,
I’m learning to fight till the war’s finally won.
Yea til the war is finally won! Fuck the past!
(Chorus)
I stand up anyway, legs shaking like hell
I fight through the ache, the anxiety, the swell
The flashbacks can drag me, they can screw with my head,
but I’m still breathing—yeah, I’m not fucking dead.
I rise like a phoenix that’s been beaten and scarred,
I claw my way forward, I don’t fall apart.
The past can reach in, but it won’t keep me down—
I’m the storm now, bitch, and I’m wearing the crown.
(Outro)
So hold on, you broken beautiful mess,
you don’t have to stay trapped in that old fucking stress.
Step by shaky step, you’re still here, you still fight—
you’re enough, you’re alive, and you’re claiming your life.
Hold on, live... thrive....
Spoken softly like a speech
Female voice speaking
Music faded away
(End Speech)
Spoken
How can I explain that I can't remember where I put my car keys some days but I can remember 8 years old and every bump on his skin that old man the disgust the confusion I can feel it but I can't feel anything right now.
I feel numb sometimes
sometimes I love hard sometimes I'm terrified of people
sometimes I'm happy sometimes I'm just not present.
if you haven't been through it you wouldn't understand
but we are not crazy
we are in pain
but we fight because we are strong
we endure
we fight to win and we do... everyday we're here and we are productive
we win everyday we choose LOVE
we win everyday we don't hurt anyone we win..
WE ARE NOT Fucking Victims!
We are the Victors!
Hurt people...hurt other people they say...
But We CHOOSE not to be that way!
bass kicks hard then fades out slowly
(Music stops the just the bass fades out)