Dog Won’t Even Look At Me

Lyrics

Verse 1
Cold coffee on the nightstand
Half a pill and a half‑read page
Brain buzzing like a hornet
Heart stuck in a concrete cage
I call my own name softly
Just to hear a human sound
Dog curls tighter on the blanket
Cat just watches from the ground

Chorus
Dog won’t even look at me
Cat won’t climb onto my chest
Guess I’m cursed and kind of boring
Even fur won’t grant me rest
If I can’t be loved by creatures
Who can’t spell “abandon me”
What hope’s left for a glitching heart
Lonely, loud, and ugly free

Verse 2
Sent three texts and then deleted
Held my breath and bit my tongue
Every joke lands like a hammer
Every truth gets labeled wrong
I flap my hands under the table
Tap a rhythm in my knee
They just say I’m too much trouble
Too intense, too much of me

Chorus
Dog won’t even look at me
Cat won’t soften when I shake
I cry quiet in the corner
Till my ribs begin to ache
If I can’t be loved by creatures
Who don’t care what “normal” means
Who’s gonna hold a jagged boy
Fraying at the nervous seams

Bridge
I tried to train myself to sit
To stay, to hush, to heel
To chase a ball of someone else
Ignore the way I feel
But this leash cuts into my neck
And this mask burns through my skin
If animal eyes won’t meet my own
How could a man let me in

Chorus
Dog won’t even look at me
Cat won’t purr against my throat
I am background in my own house
I am dust inside their coat
If I can’t be loved by creatures
Who just live from day to day
Maybe I was built defective
Bent and backward from the clay

Outro
So I sing into the ceiling
Let the echoes answer back
Just a lonely gay disaster
Talking to the bedroom black
Dog sighs once and keeps on sleeping
Cat slips out, wants to be free
Guess I’ll be my only comfort
Since my beasts won’t comfort me