Ashes On My Tongue
Lyrics
Verse 1
I watched the room go cold
one chair too many gone
Name after name on the wall
another phone that don't ring on
I was the one with the bag
the one with the shaking hands
Telling myself one more time
while the floor kept changing plans
I seen my brother fade
seen my cousin turn to smoke
Seen a best friend hit the ground
and I laughed like a bad joke
Then I woke up wrecked
heart pounding through my chest
Pills on the table, shame in my mouth
and death sitting on my breath
Pre-Chorus
I been buried in it
I been covered in it
Every lie I told myself
kept me stuck up in it
But I hear that crack inside
when the old me wants to call
I can lose it all tonight
or I can stand up after all
Chorus
I’m done with the dark
done with the chase
I want my life back
I want my face
I’m done with the dark
done with the race
I’m still here, still fighting
I want my life back
Verse 2
Morning came with a punishment
hands like shattered glass
One wrong step, one bad night
and I could’ve been the past
I seen the mirror tell the truth
pale skin, dead-eyed stare
Seen the people that loved me most
still trying to pull me there
But I’m done being the ghost
done letting grief steer
I’m writing down the damage
line by line, year by year
If I gotta crawl through fire
I’ll crawl with my eyes open
Every scar I earned in hell
is proof I can stop what broke me
Pre-Chorus
I been buried in it
I been covered in it
Every lie I told myself
kept me stuck up in it
But I hear that crack inside
when the old me wants to call
I can lose it all tonight
or I can stand up after all
Chorus
I’m done with the dark
done with the chase
I want my life back
I want my face
I’m done with the dark
done with the race
I’m still here, still fighting
I want my life back
Bridge
If you loved me, hear me
I can’t live like this
If I loved you, I’d tell you
I’m not gonna miss
one more grave, one more fall
one more week in the black
I’m choosing the hard road
and I’m not looking back
Final Chorus
I’m done with the dark
done with the chase
I want my life back
I want my face
I’m done with the dark
done with the race
I’m still here, still fighting
I want my life back