toxic love

Lyrics

[Intro - dusty vinyl crackle, slowed phonk cowbells, distant whispered ad-libs]
Yeah...
I keep comin’ back like I don’t know better
Like a scar with a pulse, like a storm in the weather

[Verse 1 - dark sub bass, lo-fi piano loop, low airy vocals]
You were poison in a pretty little glass
I drank you down and I still wanted more fast
Every goodbye left a bruise on my tongue
Every “never again” came undone

I knew your hands, knew the shape of the lie
Knew the way you’d make a flame out of ice
But lonely got loud in the back of my head
And I crawled right back to the words you said

[Pre-Chorus - tension rising, filtered drums, ghosted harmonies]
I let the hurt feel like home
Let the damage take the wheel
Told myself I’d be strong
But I folded every time I’d heal

[Chorus - heavy phonk bounce, distorted 808s, chanting layered vocals]
I kept goin’ back, back, back to the wreck
Like my heart was a magnet for a blade in my chest
You pulled me under, I still came back
Even when I knew you’d leave me blacked out, cracked

I kept goin’ back, back, back to the flame
Burned my whole soul just to hear your name
Took one more hit just to feel your touch
Now I’m finally done ’cause I loved you too much

[Verse 2 - darker drums, cowbell lead, intimate doubled vocals]
You were a loop I couldn’t break in my mind
A red light, a warning, a waste of my time
And I wore those lies like they fit me right
Like pain was the price for a little bit of light

Every time you smiled, I forgot the cost
Every time you left, I counted what I lost
But the mirror don’t lie, and the truth hit hard
I was bleeding out in your backseat heart

[Pre-Chorus - beat tightens, vocal stacks, suspenseful pause]
I let the hurt feel like home
Let the damage take the wheel
Told myself I’d be strong
But I folded every time I’d heal

[Chorus - explosive phonk hook, gritty bass, emphatic ad-libs]
I kept goin’ back, back, back to the wreck
Like my heart was a magnet for a blade in my chest
You pulled me under, I still came back
Even when I knew you’d leave me blacked out, cracked

I kept goin’ back, back, back to the flame
Burned my whole soul just to hear your name
Took one more hit just to feel your touch
Now I’m finally done ’cause I loved you too much

[Bridge - stripped-down pads, distant kick, trembling vocal delivery]
And I’m tired of the cycles
Tired of the nights I don’t remember
Tired of mistaking your chaos
For a love that could last forever

So let the smoke rise slow
Let the old me fade away
I was lost in the loop
But I don’t live there anymore today

[Final Chorus - bigger drums, thick distortion, triumphant but aching vocals]
I kept goin’ back, back, back to the wreck
Like my heart was a magnet for a blade in my chest
You pulled me under, I still came back
Even when I knew you’d leave me blacked out, cracked

I kept goin’ back, back, back to the flame
Burned my whole soul just to hear your name
Took one more hit just to feel your touch
Now I’m finally done ’cause I loved you too much

[Outro - fading cowbells, reverb-heavy vocals, vinyl hiss]
Too much...
I loved you too much...
And I’m done comin’ back