WHY? (Remastered)

Lyrics

[Intro - eerie clean guitar, distant room reverb, whispered vocals over low synth hum]
The house still breathes when I don’t
Dust on the frame, cracks in the stone
Every room knows my name too well
Like a prayer turned into a cell

[Verse 1 - bleak rap cadence, sparse drums, cold bass, half-spoken then rising]
I gave my time, I gave my hands
Built everybody else’s plans
Loaned my heart like it was free
Now it’s just a debt in me
I wore the smile, I played the role
Tried to keep some light in my soul
But the favors came with hooks in line
And I kept saying, “That’s just life”

[Pre-Chorus - clean vocals building, toms rolling, tension rising]
Now the phone rings, and I already know
They don’t ask how deep the damage goes
They only call when they need a name
To carry their weight, to take the blame

[Chorus - explosive metalcore, heavy distortion, screamed lead with anthemic gang vocals]
I’m alone in the ashes of a life I tried to save
Broke and bleeding in a room where nobody comes to wait
I was good to the ones who left me choking on the truth
Now the echoes in my head are the only ones I knew
Tell me why it hurts to finally see
Nobody loved me like I needed to be
I gave and gave till there was nothing left to give
Now I’m just a ghost in the house where I used to live

[Verse 2 - dark rap-metal, chugging guitars, sharp snare, bitter spoken lines]
I can hear them in the walls at night
“They had their reasons,” “It wasn’t right”
“They cared,” “They didn’t,” round and round
Like broken glass on the bedroom ground
Maybe I asked too much, maybe I asked too little
Maybe I was just the fool in the middle
Always there when the storm got loud
Always last, never part of the crowd
And every memory turns to rust
Every “I’ll be there” turned into dust

[Pre-Chorus - strained clean vocal, layered harmonies, drums swelling]
I try to justify the knives in my back
Say they were lost, say they were cracked
But the silence says what they won’t say
I was useful until I got in the way

[Breakdown - ultra-heavy, syncopated guitars, guttural screams, gang shouts]
STOP!
Shut up!
Get out of my head!
I gave my life to the living
Now I’m dying with the dead!
STOP!
No more excuses, no more lies
No more “maybe,” no more “why”
I SEE IT NOW
I WAS NEVER ENOUGH
JUST A HAND TO HOLD
UNTIL THEY WEREN’T TOUCHED

[Bridge - stripped back, clean piano and ambient guitar, fragile vocal]
If there was mercy in this place
I never found it in a face
Just empty chairs and hollow praise
And all my dreams in faded grays
I’m tired of fighting with the ghosts
Tired of loving what hurt most
The truth stands cold, it stands alone
Nobody cared when I was gone

[Final Chorus - biggest wall of sound, screamed and sung layers, massive drums]
I’m alone in the ashes of a life I tried to save
Broke and bleeding in a room where nobody comes to wait
I was good to the ones who left me choking on the truth
Now the echoes in my head are the only ones I knew
Tell me why it hurts to finally see
Nobody loved me like I needed to be
I gave and gave till there was nothing left to give
Now I’m just a ghost in the house where I used to live

[Outro - collapsing instruments, sustained feedback, haunted whisper vocals]
Empty house... empty name...
All my love... all my shame...
Nothing left... nothing stays...
Only silence... in my veins...

Empty house...empty name...
All my love...all my shame...
To much guilt...stop the pain...Blood so cold...in my veins.....