Hold On For You

Lyrics

Verse 1
Phone lit up on my nightstand
Three missed calls from the same old band
Group chat screaming stupid memes
You idiots still believe in me

Staring down at the bathroom sink
Thoughts run darker than the kitchen drink
But your names float up like a lifeboat rope
Pulling on my chest
Tying me to hope

Chorus
I don't wanna be here anymore
But I can't leave you at that door
With my chair empty
Plate still set
Inside joke that never lands again
I don't wanna breathe this heavy air
But you keep pulling up a spare chair
So I stay
Even when I’m breaking in two
I hold on for you

Verse 2
You said
"Game night
Friday
Don't be late"
Left a hoodie on my porch
Just in case
You know the days when I disappear
You circle dates like prayers on a calendar year

You drag me out for grocery runs
Talk about nothing till the dark feels numb
I fake a laugh
Then it turns real soft
You bump my shoulder
Say
"Yeah
We call that progress
Boss"

Chorus
I don't wanna be here anymore
But I can't leave you at that door
With my chair empty
Plate still set
Inside joke that never lands again
I don't wanna breathe this heavy air
But you keep pulling up a spare chair
So I stay
Even when I’m breaking in two
I hold on for you

Bridge
If one night I say I'm fine
Read the silence in the line
Say my name
Keep me on the phone (stay, stay)
Tell me how you’d miss my stupid songs

'Cause I'm not brave for me at all
I'm just scared to make you fall
So I turn my car back toward the lighted rooms
Where your voices drown the doom

Chorus
I don't wanna be here anymore
But I can't leave you at that door
With my chair empty
Plate still set
Inside joke that never lands again
I don't wanna breathe this heavy air
But you keep pulling up a spare chair
So I stay
Even when I’m breaking in two
Yeah
I stay
Even when these thoughts bleed through
I hold on for you
I hold on for you