To Hell

Lyrics

[Verse 1 - eerie piano, sparse synths, fragile whispery female vocal]
I learned to smile with my head down low
Count bruises like stars in a blacked-out sky
At home, the walls knew my name by heart
At school, they’d laugh when I tried to hide
Then you looked at me like I was seen
Like I was something worth saving tonight
You said, “Come with me, don’t be afraid”
And I mistook your cold for light

[Pre-Chorus - tension rising, pulsing kick, layered harmonies]
So I wore your promise like a paper crown
Clutched it tight while the whole room spun
If you were my way out, I’d burn it down
For one sweet lie, I’d become someone

[Chorus - explosive pop hook, heavy bass, glossy synths, soaring lead vocal]
I loved you like a prayer in the dark
Like a knife with a glittering heart
You were the door, you were the flame
I walked right in and called your name
Now the music dies, now the blood runs red
And the crown on my head feels like a threat
If heaven won’t have me, then neither will hell
I still love you, I still love you too well

[Verse 2 - dark electro-pop groove, distorted backing vocals, sharp percussion]
They lifted me up, the whole gym in a haze
Cameras flashed like a thousand eyes
Then something warm and animal hit my skin
And the room went wild with the truth in disguise
I turned to you, mascara and shock
Begging your face to undo what I’d seen
But you were laughing with the crowd at the joke
Like my heart was just prom-night debris

[Pre-Chorus - building synths, heartbeat kick, breathy vocal cracks]
And something inside me split like glass
Every cruel word I’d swallowed came back
The doors slammed shut with a thunderous gasp
And the lights burned white as the ceiling cracked

[Chorus - massive anthemic drop, distorted bass, choir-like harmonies]
I loved you like a prayer in the dark
Like a knife with a glittering heart
You were the door, you were the flame
I walked right in and called your name
Now the air tastes ash, now the walls come down
And I wear the wreckage like a wedding gown
If heaven won’t have me, then neither will hell
I still love you, I still love you too well

[Bridge - stripped back, eerie piano and warped pads, intimate unstable vocal]
Don’t run from me
I know you’re scared
I saw you turn
I saw you stare
But I can’t let go
No, I can’t unsee
The boy who smiled
And rescued me
So stay with me
Where the fire blooms
I’ll keep you safe
In the end, in the fumes

[Final Chorus / Outro - full production, crashing drums, siren synths, anguished belts]
I loved you like a prayer in the dark
Like a match held close to my broken heart
You were the lie, you were the chain
Now I wear your name like a stain
The room goes red, the whole world falls
I hold you tight through your terrified calls
If love is a grave, then bury me well
I still love you, I still love you
I still love you
To hell