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I walked a mile
just to show up again
Cold rain on my face
I hoped she would let me in
the shame that I felt
but i met you again
I slept for a week in my old bed
comeing down off shit
I just wanted it to end

I count to ten
Then count again
My own mind
Keeps calling in
I taste the want
I taste the need
then I flipped out
like a fene
left again for a week
then 1 more time I O-Deed
But I’m still here
I’m still young
I'm back for good now,
to be your mom.

I hold on tight
I choose you
I'll fix myself
I'll be brand new
And then i can show you and teach you to
If I slip up,
small hiccup,
Know that ill still pickup,
Myself for you again
With no time waiting from when and then.

I missed three birthdays,
And so much more,
i sat with people that were poor,
walked 20 minutes to bathe on a beach shore
water bottles kept coming but we always needed more
peeing in a bush, if you dont know the hub life,
well its pretty hardcore.

always watching your back
walkin around, fear of being attacked
the people around there were pretty facked
but im done with the down and im done with the crack,
i wanted to come home, i wanted to come back.

I learned my triggers got names and faces
Same old devil in a thousand places
One step back can feel like miles
But I know that road, its been a while
Some get clean, some just give up
some fall back down, after they get up.
Im not perfect, I fuck up
I don’t need that life anymore, i gave it up

And if tomorrow breaks me
I’ll still know my name
I can be the best
And still not be the same
Its not over, i still fight
That’s just one struggle
of leaving the fast life.
hey,
day by day,
i choose to stay,
and choose this way,
but I'm not okay.