Julian In My Head

Lyrics

Verse 1
Ceiling cracks and midnight shadows
Clothes still piled on that same old chair
Your hoodie hangs like a bad joke
I swear I feel you standing there

Phone face down on my pillow
Blue light begging me to scroll
Every picture is a landmine
Every memory takes its toll

Chorus
I’m just sitting in my room
Thinking ’bout Julian
How you came and drew a heart just to ruin it
Spelled forever in the dust on my windowpane
Then you wiped it all away
Left me in the rain
I’m just tracing all the letters of your name again
Julian
Julian
Why’d you let it end?

Verse 2
Coffee stain on the nightstand
From that morning you were late
You kissed my hair
Said you’d call back
Guess the traffic was my fate

Your name carved in my notebook
Right beside my stupid plans
All the futures that I sketched out
Now just ink on shaking hands

Chorus
I’m just sitting in my room
Thinking ’bout Julian
How you came and drew a heart just to ruin it
Spelled forever in the dust on my windowpane
Then you wiped it all away
Left me in the rain
I’m just tracing all the letters of your name again
Julian
Julian
Why’d you let it end?

Bridge
Did you ever say my name and mean it? (mean it)
Or was I just someone to fill a weekend?
Every promise that you slid across my skin
Turns to paper cuts when I let you in

Chorus
I’m still sitting in my room
Thinking ’bout Julian
Every crack inside my chest
You’re the root of it
Wrote your name across my heart like a foolish kid
Now I’m trying to erase what you never did
I keep whispering those letters till they fade to wind
Julian
Julian
You don’t get back in