death's vow
Lyrics
Intro — whispered
From the day I met you...
I thought you were the one.
I thought forever had found me.
I was wrong.
Verse 1
I remember the first day,
I remember what I wrote,
Said you were out of my league,
Said I'd never let you go.
I had a heart behind a fortress,
A soul afraid to trust,
You held the key I handed over,
And I thought that meant love.
I was scared to let you near me,
But you promised I was safe,
So I handed you my heart.
I called your arms my shelter,
Your heartbeat called me home,
Never thought the place I loved
Would become the place I'd feel alone.
I couldn't see it.
Pre-Chorus
I called your darkness protection,
I called your silence peace,
I mistook your chains for devotion,
Didn't know you were burying me.
I poured my soul into your hands,
Every fear, every scar,
I gave you every piece of me
And called it being loved.
Verse 2
"You make me feel so happy."
"You make me feel alive."
"I don't have to fake my smiles."
God, I meant it every time.
I wrote about our first date,
How perfect it had seemed,
How I thought I'd finally found
The person I'd always dreamed.
I showed you where my wounds began
And trusted you with them.
I wrote you endless love letters,
Put my soul between the lines,
Told you I'd love you forever.
I thanked you for being you.
I meant every word,
Never knowing every promise
Would become another scar.
Pre-Chorus
I called your lies confusion,
I called your anger pain,
I kept searching for the hero
While the monster wore your face.
You knew exactly where I hurt...
And somehow, I still stayed.
Bridge — whispered
Do you remember?
"I love you forever."
"I never want you to change."
"You make me feel safe."
"You're the key to my heart."
"With you, I feel whole."
I meant every single word.
That's what hurts the most.
Because when I read them now,
I don't hear your voice anymore.
I hear mine.
A girl terrified of abandonment,
finally believing somebody had chosen her.
I thought love meant giving someone
every broken piece
and trusting them not to break the rest.
Breakdown
I GAVE YOU MY HEART!
I GAVE YOU MY TRUST!
I GAVE YOU THE PARTS OF ME
I THOUGHT NO ONE WOULD TOUCH!
Verse 3
Now the letters sit like ghosts,
Every promise staring back.
Every "I love you forever"
Feels like words I can't take back.
I was building us a future
While you watched mine collapse.
I was devoted to someone
Who wasn't devoted to me.
And there is a difference.
Bridge II — Spoken/Sung
The last one before the end...
The one you never forget.
There was a demon in the darkness,
And I was praying for a hero.
You said, "I'm your hero in disguise."
And I believed you.
I looked into your eyes
And searched for something beautiful.
I asked, "Why am I here?"
You said, "To be loved."
Somewhere between the promises
and apologies, I understood—
The disguise was the monster.
Breakdown
I SEE YOU NOW
I SEE WHAT YOU HID.
I SEE THE FACE BEHIND THE MASK.
I DON'T OWE YOU MY HEART.
I DON'T OWE YOU MY LIFE.
You wanted me blind—
But I see everything now.
Final Chorus
I'm not blind by love anymore,
I can finally see the truth.
The walls you made around me
Couldn't keep me there forever.
You said you'd be my shelter,
But you became the storm.
You called yourself my hero—
Now I know what you were all along.
I wasn't blind because I was weak.
I was blind because I loved you first.
Final Chorus — softer
This was my Death's Vow,
But I won't die inside it anymore.
The girl who swore she'd love you forever
Isn't waiting at that door.
I found the strength to save myself
When you couldn't save my heart.
Death doesn't get the final word.
Keep every "forever."
Now I understand—
Devotion isn't disappearing
inside somebody else.
Outro — whispered
I used to write love letters to you.
Now I write them to the girl who survived you.
You were my forever...
Until I realized—
I deserved one of my own.