I'll keep showing up

Lyrics

(Intro – soft, spoken)
You think I got it all together, don’t you?
You think just because I show up…
and I smile…
and I do what I’m supposed to do…
you think that I’m good…

(Verse 1)
I wear my calm like it’s stitched to my skin
Play my part, never let it sink in
Every laugh got a story behind
But I keep it locked, yeah I keep it inside

Everybody calls when they breaking down
I’m the safe place, I don’t let them drown
But when it’s me, I just fade to black
No one ever really asks me back

(Pre-Chorus)
Like… where do I go when I fall apart?
Who hears me when it hits my heart?

(Spoken Drop)
Like everybody can come to me when they breaking down…
but when it’s me, I’m just supposed to sit with it, right?
I don’t even know how to ask for help anymore…
I don’t know what that looks like…

(Chorus)
So yeah, you know I laugh and I joke and I show up
But I’ve been carrying weight they don’t know of
I keep it steady, never let it blow up
Even when I’m breaking, I still show love

And the crazy part, I don’t need saving
I ain’t asking for nobody changing
I just wish someone would notice… maybe
But till they do… I keep going, I keep going

(Verse 2)
Heavy thoughts but I dress them light
Say “I’m fine” every single night
Got so good at hiding pain
Even I can’t tell what’s fake

Mirror talks but it don’t reply
Just me staring in my own eyes
Try to reach but I pull away
Don’t even know what I’d say

(Pre-Chorus)
When silence louder than every cry
You learn to live with “I’m alright”

(Spoken Drop)
So yeah… I laugh and I joke and I show up…
But I’ve been carrying stuff that nobody ever checked on…
NOBODY.

And the crazy part is… I’m not even asking anybody to come fix it…
I just wish that somebody would notice…

But until they do…
I guess I’ll just keep on showing up… right?

(Final Chorus)
So I keep showing up, keep playing strong
Even when everything feels so wrong
No one sees it, I move along
Singing pain in a quiet song

Yeah I keep showing up, don’t miss a day
Even when I’m not okay
If nobody looks my way…
I’ll still be there… I’ll still stay…

(Outro)
You think I got it all together… don’t you…