Love Wearing Masks. ( Shayne)

Lyrics

Shayne.......

(Chorus 1)

Why every woman I loved wore a mask? (a mask)
hid they true intentions till the moment they crashed
Into my heart and tore my soul apart (tore apart)
left me bleedin’ in the dark again
And maybe I kept lettin’ it repeat (repeat)
cause lonely hearts fall hard for anything sweet
Puff puff passsssss… let the smoke drift slow (drift slow)
sometimes love hurt worse than drugs, I know

(Verse 1)

I think it started way back as a kid (way back)
all them nights nobody cared how I lived
Closet doors shut while I cried alone (alone)
dreamin’ somebody someday call me home
So when women showed affection later on (later on)
I held too tight even when shit felt wrong
Ignored red flags cause attention felt rare (felt rare)
when you grow up unloved, anything feel like care
One minute she tellin’ me “baby you enough” (you enough)
next minute she cold and distant as fuck
And every switch-up reopened old pain (old pain)
made me feel like that broken child again
Still I stayed beggin’ people not to leave (don’t leave)
cause abandonment got roots deep in me
Now I realize I was chasin’ love blind (blindly)
hopin’ somebody finally heal my mine

(Chorus 2)

Love wearin’ masks, hidin’ all the lies (all the lies)
kissin’ me soft while betrayal filled they eyes
And every time they switched up overnight (overnight)
it left another scar inside my life
Puff puff passsssss… numb me for tonight (tonight)
cause heartbreak louder when it’s quiet at night
And I swear heartbreak got me so gone (so gone)
sometimes it felt stronger than drugs

(Verse 2)

17 years old when my first world broke (first heartbreak)
baby mama dipped and left me chokin’
Ohio flights while I stayed in Florida hurt (Florida nights)
young pride buried me deeper in the dirt
After that I stopped trustin’ easy (nah)
every “I love you” started soundin’ creepy
Still I kept searchin’ for somebody to save me (save me)
while county jail and smoke slowly changed me
Then 26 I met another dream (another one)
thought she finally saw the best in me
She pushed me harder, told me stack that cash (run it up)
whole time she just loved what I had
33 woke up and she was gone (gone)
took everything while I slept alone
That betrayal hit harder than any drug did (too hard)
cause love was the addiction I couldn’t quit

(Chorus 3)

Why I keep fallin’ for women in disguise? (disguise)
why every warm smile end in goodbye?
Maybe I’m addicted to the hope they bring (hope they bring)
same way addicts chase that dopamine
Puff puff passsssss… exhale all this grief (deep breath)
cause heartbreak still livin’ deep in me
And maybe I confuse pain with love (maybe)
cause pain the only thing I grew up of

(Verse 3)

I remember overdosin’ feelin’ dead inside (dead inside)
paramedics pale white lookin’ terrified
But somehow heartbreak still hurt me more (more)
cause drugs numb pain, love start wars
At least with smoke I knew what I’d get (facts)
temporary peace and regret
But love? Love had me buildin’ dreams (dreams)
just to wake up shattered mentally
Every woman wore kindness like a disguise (disguise)
till eventually the real them arrived
Cold words, lies, distance and games (same shit)
left me drownin’ in shame
And maybe they ain’t evil, maybe we both broken (both broken)
maybe hurt souls leave hearts smokin’
Still it damaged the way I see romance now (romance now)
hard to trust when pain keep comin’ around

(Chorus 4)

Love wearin’ masks almost ruined my soul (my soul)
turned my warm heart emotionally cold
But I’m tired of bleedin’ for temporary love (temporary)
tired of feelin’ never enough
Puff puff passsssss… let the rain fall slow (rainfall)
all them old wounds finally startin’ to show
And maybe real love don’t hide behind lies (real love)
maybe someday I’ll stop askin’ why

(Verse 4)

Then she walked in and the energy changed (changed)
for once affection ain’t feel staged
No games, no switch-ups, no hidden face (hidden face)
just peace every time she touched my pain
First night in her arms I finally slept calm (slept calm)
ain’t felt safety since my childhood gone
And I kept waitin’ on the mask to slip (to slip)
cause trauma made trust hard as shit
But months passed and she stayed the same (same woman)
held me close through anxiety and pain
That’s when I realized maybe love ain’t cruel (ain’t cruel)
maybe I just kept chasin’ damaged people
Cause broken hearts search for what feel familiar (familiar)
even if that pain almost kill ya
Now I’m slowly learnin’ I deserve somethin’ real (somethin’ real)
not just temporary highs that never heal

(Outro)

Maybe that’s why heartbreak felt worse than drugs…
Drugs numb you…
but love?
Love make you believe somebody finally see you…
finally choose you…
finally stay…
Then one day the mask fall off…
and you realize you was lovin’ a version of them
that never really existed…
Puff puff passsssss…
watch the smoke rise into the night sky…
Still hopin’ one day…
love won’t hurt no more…