Scared OF Real

Lyrics

(Intro)

Yeah… (yeah)
First time it feel like this… (for real)
Ain’t used to somethin’ real… (nah)

(Chorus)

I was runnin’ from love when it felt too real (too real)
Heart start beatin’ fast, I ain’t know how to deal (uh)
Used to lonely nights, I was numb, no feel (no feel)
Now I’m tryna be the man that you know I could be (be)
I get scared, I push away, I ain’t mean that (nah)
All that pain in my past, I ain’t heal that (uh)
But I’m workin’ on me, I’ma fix that (fix that)
Tryna give you a love I ain’t never had (yeah)

(Verse 1)

I ain’t used to somebody stayin’, I’m used to goodbye (gone)
Every time it got deep, I’d just cut ties (cut ties)
Backstabbers, fake love, all them cold nights (cold)
Had my heart in a cage, couldn’t show mine (nah)
You came in, switched lanes, made me feel somethin’ (feel)
Had me nervous as hell, I ain’t built for it (uh)
I was fightin’ myself, tryna run from it (run)
‘Cause real love hit different, I was scared of it
See, I ain’t never had peace, only chaos (nah)
So when you showed me love, I tried to break us (why?)
Self-sabotage, yeah I played that role (damn)
Rather lose it myself than to lose control (facts)
But you stayed through the mess, you ain’t fold on me (you didn’t)
Saw the man I could be, put that hope on me (hope)
Now I’m lookin’ in the mirror like “change up” (change)
‘Cause I finally got somethin’ I can’t give up (nah)

(Chorus)

I was runnin’ from love when it felt too real (too real)
Heart start beatin’ fast, I ain’t know how to deal (uh)
Used to lonely nights, I was numb, no feel (no feel)
Now I’m tryna be the man that you know I could be (be)
I get scared, I push away, I ain’t mean that (nah)
All that pain in my past, I ain’t heal that (uh)
But I’m workin’ on me, I’ma fix that (fix that)
Tryna give you a love I ain’t never had (yeah)

(Verse 2)

Years on my own, I was lost in the dark (lost)
Built all these walls, put a lock on my heart (locked)
Did wrong before, I ain’t proud of my scars (nah)
But you see past it all, you see who I are (yeah)
And it scare me for real, I ain’t used to trust (trust)
Every time I get close, I just self-destruct (boom)
But I’m tired of that cycle, I’m breakin’ free (free)
‘Cause you worth more than who I used to be (facts)
I’m learnin’ patience, I’m learnin’ to grow (grow)
Tryna talk ‘stead of leavin’, that’s somethin’ new though (new)
I was toxic before, I admit my wrongs (my bad)
Now I’m writin’ you love in these different songs (yeah)
I ain’t perfect, but I’m puttin’ in work (work)
Tryna heal all the pain that was makin’ me hurt (hurt)
If you stay, I swear I’ll give you my best (my best)
Be the man you deserve, not the man I was left (nah)

(Bridge)

If I run, just know I’m fightin’ inside (inside)
Tryna kill all the demons I used to hide (hide)
You the reason I’m changin’ my ways (you are)
First time I ever wanted to stay (stay…)

(Chorus)

I was runnin’ from love when it felt too real (too real)
Heart start beatin’ fast, I ain’t know how to deal (uh)
Used to lonely nights, I was numb, no feel (no feel)
Now I’m tryna be the man that you know I could be (be)
I get scared, I push away, I ain’t mean that (nah)
All that pain in my past, I ain’t heal that (uh)
But I’m workin’ on me, I’ma fix that (fix that)
Tryna give you a love I ain’t never had (yeah)

(Outro)

Yeah… (yeah)
First real love hit different… (different)
I ain’t runnin’ no more… (nah)
I’m stayin’ this time… (for real)