real love
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I wish I could hug you just one more time not for long just enough so I could feel your breath again to put my head on your chest and hear your heartbeat like i use to i would close my eyes and memorize everything the warmth of your arms the way you held me the way the world felt safe when you were close i wouldn't rush it this time i wouldn't pull away id hold on tighter longer like somehow I could stop time from taking you away again because now I understand how cruel life can be like it can turn an ordinary moment into a final goodbye without even telling you if I had known that would be our last hug i would have never let go now all I have are memories that I play over and over again trying to feel you trying to hold you even when you're no longer here and the hardest part is that my arms still reach for you like you never left wish I could hug you one more time . Watching myself slowly losing my spark has been one of the hardest things I've ever faced it felt like the part of me that once felt alive is fading and I don't know how to bring it back i miss the version of me that dreamed freely and laughed without effort i wake up feeling emptier then before carrying those feelings heavier than they should be laughter feels forced hope feels distant and sometimes i barely recognize who I became the hardest part is knowing its happening and feeling to tired to stop it like watching my own light quickly go out leaving me with a broken heart. Luchie my love i never believed in the one till you come alone and proved me wrong now I understand what real love feels like calm safe and true im not holding anything back im giving you all of me completely and honestly thank you for being my peace in this noisy world I'll choose you over and over again I love you Robert Carlos lujano with all my heart and soul your my one true love My best friend and my soulmate always and forever till death do us part . We want always get it right there will be moments we misunderstand each other say things we don't mean pull away when we need connection but even then I'll keep choosing us I'll pause I'll listen I'll come closer because how we love each other in the hard moments means more than anything that comes easy.i miss you when when I fight with my family I miss you when i wake up with nightmares so you can hold me tight and tell me it's going to be alright I miss you when someone mentions something about you i miss you when I achieve something like a song i wrote just for you wish I could tell you first i miss you when I'm struggling through though moments I miss you when my phone rings and its not you I miss hearing your voice every day cuz you're in the hole in jail for cutting your hair your a fighter from a long distance but still close to my heart it's just to painful to live in this home cuz everywhere I look I se you and everything i see is a memory of you need to get out of this place find somewhere new so you'll have a home to come to when you get out a place to call our home miss seeing your face when I visit you even though it's through a tv screen I can't touch you can't kiss you can't even smell you or feel the warmth of your hands on my face touching my cheek so gently and softly your skin next to mine holding me so close I can almost feel the love you give I hope when you get out you'll still feel the same to walk down that isle in a white dress and Vail tak your hand say our vows say i do and I love you as the preacher say you may now kiss the bride our lips touch and our toungs touch iv never felt so in love before .my heart beating so fast as were dancing at our wedding party you use your mouth to pull down the circle band off my leg and I throw the bouquet of flowers and we get in a car saying just married going to a hotel room you picking me up to walk me through the door tossing me on the bed tearing my wedding dress off and me ripping your tucksedo off and us making sweet love all night Long it's a dream that I want to come true as soon as you get out jail if you still want me that is I want to spend the rest of my life with you and have kid's with you luchie my love is worth more than gold so I'll continue the fight for us and no matter what I'll find you I'll search the world to find you I will follow my heart it will lead me to you. Our love is so strong it never gives up hope till you return to me I love you luchie SO much don't ever forget that.