Bed of Paint Markers

Lyrics

(Intro)

(verse 1)
{So} Here's to you fuckin' forgetting what 'we' meant!
It would seem you haven't gotten over yourself yet.
{at least} Not enough to figure out how to actually prioritize.
As I'll never be enough for you to ever fucking realize.

You've been doing it wrong for most the entire time.
Love isn't about just you, learn how to fucking compromise!
You missed the memo all about give and take...
Incapable now, the only thing you give is more heartbreak.

(chorus)
I was never that good at boundaries, I couldn't make them set.
Even though every time I told I was broken, I fucking meant it.
There's a sway within me and it causes me to fall.
I crash and cave in, I'm the only one who truly loved at all.
Back and forth, there's the war ongoing with my heart and my head...
While you're causing me whiplash, actions don't ever match to anything you've ever said...

(verse 2)
How can it be that your turned out to be someone so bad?
Incapable of honesty, you're the worst pain my heart's ever had.
How rotten is it that you actually have to be more than aware...
Of what you do to me, that's why you keep it up, I know you don't care.

Dually noted and point proven too, I have seen enough...
You've gone out of your way to tell me my heart can just get fucked.
It's not lost on me how creative you've been with your disrespect.
You behold no respect for me, you have no fear for regret.

(chorus)
I was never that good at boundaries, I couldn't make them set.
Even though every time I told I was broken, I fucking meant it.
There's a sway within me and it causes me to fall.
I crash and cave in, I'm the only one who truly loved at all.
Back and forth, there's the war ongoing with my heart and my head...
While you're causing me whiplash, actions don't ever match to anything you've ever said...

(verse3 )
If you hated me not being yours at all, should've stopped the never ending lies.
You wouldn't be throwing your tantrums had you been able to actually fucking try...
I sleep just fine now on my bed of paint markers, where I've left no room for you.
Removing myself from who I love is the only way to not feel pain, look what you made me do.

Every time I think about it, the constant lying and sneaky things you do to me with such ease...
An anger and sadness so nauseating festers so deep within me...

(chorus)
I was never that good at boundaries, I couldn't make them set.
Even though every time I told I was broken, I fucking meant it.
There's a sway within me and it causes me to fall.
I crash and cave in, I'm the only one who truly loved at all.
Back and forth, there's the war ongoing with my heart and my head...
While you're causing me whiplash, actions don't ever match to anything you've ever said...

(outro)
It's like you've gone out of your way to show me what harm you're capable of.
Well, successful, are you proud of being so hard to fucking love?
I can't understand what it is, why you are only consistent with making sure my life is so hard...
I'll never fucking get it; why I can only count on you ruining me....
And tearing me Apart....