Heavy wings

Lyrics

I laid my wings beside the bed With all the words I never said My halo's hanging by the door I don't know who I'm praying for

I've worn these scars beneath my clothes God knows the half of what nobody knows I kept on giving till nothing remained Then wondered why love always came with pain

The moon's gone pale, the stars won't speak I've been so strong, I'm growing weak I gave my feathers to the rain Now I can't tell mercy from pain

I used to fly above the trees Before the world brought me to my knees I hid my light, I swallowed cries And wore a smile to hide my eyes

I prayed to heaven for a sign Asked if this life was still meant to be mine I searched the dark for a little bit of grace While sorrow kept a home inside my face

But something stirred beneath my skin A quiet strength I couldn't keep buried within My wings had heard what I couldn't hear A voice from God saying, "You don't belong here"

They spread wide when I couldn't stand They moved before I could raise my hands No trumpet sounded, no heavens split Just feathers rising when I'd had enough of it

They carried me out of the endless night Past every shadow that stole my light I didn't have the strength to choose But my wings knew what I couldn't lose

I thought my wings were made to serve To bend, to break, to never swerve But even angels have a day When love means turning and flying away

I still have scars where the feathers grew Still find old pieces of who I knew But I won't lay my wings down again Or call it love when it feels like pain

And if you see me standing tall Know I nearly disappeared through it all I wasn't saved because I never cried I was saved when my wings took my side

Now when the night comes whispering low I feel those feathers begin to grow And in the hush, when the world goes still I hear God's voice, and I trust that voice still