THE HALO I HID IN THE DARK

Lyrics

Verse 1
I heard the house breathe when the mouths went still,
Felt a cold wind turn at the top of the hill.
There were words in the walls I couldn't repeat,
And a pulse in the dark keeping time with my feet.

I learned how to bow without bending my sight,
How to carry a dawn through the dead of the night.
They thought I was lost in the shape of my fear;
I was learning the difference between silence and ears.

Verse 2
I laid down my wings by a bed full of tears,
Let the dust make a kingdom of all of my years.
My halo went cold, but it never went out;
Some stars burn in secret when heaven looks down.

And God, in the hush where the proud voices cease,
Never promised me painless; He taught me His peace.
Not every strange feeling is a message above,
But I learned to test the darkness by the truth inside His love.

Pre-Chorus
Something under my ribs has been counting the cost,
Not the girl who obeyed, but the woman I lost.
There's a lock in the silence, a key in my name;
I can open the door without becoming the flame.

Chorus
I am not the fallen. I am not the forsaken.
I am every sleeping truth that the silence couldn't take.
Let the black sky split; let the old bells ring—
I was never made to worship the cage that held my wings.

I don't need to curse the night to prove that I can see.
I don't need to wear their shadows like they're stitched into me.
If the heavens gave me breath, I'll spend it on the truth;
I've walked through all this winter; now the wild thing's breaking through.

Verse 3
I remember the woman who apologized for air,
Who carried every burden, then pretended not to care.
She mistook being needed for a reason to remain,
Built a chapel out of promises and knelt inside the rain.

A promise without honor is a bell without a tone,
And a heart can lose its compass trying not to stand alone.
So I gathered up the pieces I'd scattered to survive,
And I asked the girl beneath them if she wanted to be alive.

She didn't ask for vengeance. She didn't ask for gold.
She just wanted someone to believe the truth she told.
So I took her by the hand, let the old illusions fall;
There was no monster at the doorway. There was a woman, after all.

The Veil — Violin Alone
If these wings are mine, why was I taught to hide?
If this voice is Yours, why did I bury mine inside?
Then a breath moved through the stillness, not a threat and not a sign,
Just the truth I'd been avoiding:

I am Yours, and this life is mine.

Verse 4 — Rising
I won't wait for thunder to tell me I can stand.
I won't trade another lifetime just to fit inside their plans.
Let the dust rise from the rafters; let the old foundations shake—
There are roots beneath this ruin that the storm could never break.

I have tenderness for the wounded, boundaries for the cruel.
I can love without surrendering the right to choose my rules.
I can walk with God in wonder, with my eyes and spirit clear;
Faith is not the death of reason, and I will not live by fear.

Bridge — Building Power
The wings begin to open.
The floor begins to tremble.
The child who learned to disappear
Has something to remember.

No crown bestowed by strangers.
No throne built out of pain.
No need to rule the heavens—

I am done surrendering my name.

Final Movement — Full Force
I was never just the ashes.
I was never just the scar.
I was learning how to carry
What I'd mistaken for a star.

Let the ancient doors swing open.
Let the buried bells awake.
I have knelt enough in shadows.

NOW WATCH THE SILENCE BREAK.

Outro — Whispered Over Solo Violin
I laid my wings beside the bed,
Released the words I never said.
The dark gave back what fear had stolen;
My sleeping soul is now awoken.

No borrowed crown. No master's key.
No cage can tell my soul to flee.
The night grows still. The veil grows thin.

I remember.

I remember who I am.