demons in my head

Lyrics

I carry demons in my head every night they keep me awake instead whispers in the dark tell me I'm hopeless got me feeling like I'm hanging by a thread people see me smile but it's pretend truth is I don't even know who I am too many scars that never healed too much pain I can never deflect I got trouble living deep in my soul turn my heart cold while I lost control every memory feels like a nightmare now and silence only makes the voices grow I tried running from the darkness inside but no matter where I go it follows my life every single day feels like survival trying not to drown in my own mind and honestly I'm exhausted inviting myself trying to heal wounds that nobody else can see I carry demons in my head every night they fill me with red I'm losing sleep and losing peace trying to run memories and every time I think I heal the pain reminds me that it's still real I'm tired of pretending I'm okay when darkness follow me everywhere sometimes I isolate from everybody close to me cuz I am scared to see the pain I hold I started pushing love away from me mistakes inside my brain like punishment I can't escape every Time Life starts feeling bad something inside me breaks again I hate how pain rewrite makes hope feel distant when you feel lost makes happiness feel unfamiliar and makes peaceful like something that may cost but deep down I still want a healing even after all these scars cuz maybe broken souls can still recover maybe even after falling this hard maybe I'm not beyond saving maybe pay won't last forever maybe storms have been sleep past even when feels like heavy I carry demons in my head but I'm still fighting them instead even when darkness pulls me down I'm still standing in my ground some people fight warriors that nobody else can see